I can’t take this. I feel so empty. Like there’s nothing left of me. I’m faking a smile constantly and I can’t even eat. He ruined my life. I’m not sure what to do. I’m covered in scars and cuts. I can’t open up to anyone. I get taunted at school. And I’ve got failing grades. I just want to take the easy way out.
A girl who is unwanted.
A girl who’s shunned.
Where do I belong.
They tell me suicides not my only option.
But I can’t go anywhere else.
No one wants me and im already a burden enough.
I cant tell them how i feel inside.
I cant show them my scars and i cant show them my pain
Theyd never understand  and I don’t know how to explain it to them
They’ll lock me away.
I can’t tell them how my mind is now my prison. I can’t tell them how alone I feel even when im surrounded by so many people.
How no one wants to be near me.
How its impossible that anyone to love […]
I guess I just don’t know what I want from people anymore. It’s like I’m screaming for someone to take two seconds to notice that I’m dying. It’s like I’ve fallen down in the middle of a stampede, and everyone just keeps trampling me. They don’t notice that they’re about to lose me. Would they care? Would they even notice if I was gone? My own boyfriend is so obsessed with that damn piano that he doesn’t have time for me. I understand, because I’m a music major too, but I’d drop my guitar for him anytime. He knows that I’ve struggled in the past […]
evry day i wake up next to mi girfrind
she is teh luv of my lyf, her smile is so butiful.
i m reely scared dat i will hert her bcuz she is rlly in2 bondage
1 day wen we wer gettin dirty i got carried away
ALL I SAW WAS RED
nxt thing i now she waz pased out on da bed wit blod evrywere
i had broked her but
aftr i had take her to haspitol she had lst so mch blod she now brane damged
nd she hats me
nd bcuz i luv her so mch and trst evryting she thnks
i now h8 myself nd m goin to  kil self
gudbye ally, […]
i h8 mi boiifren
he iz nigga
i h8 him
he beet mii
i fiil ded insyd
plz kil me
by by worl
so avrey thing i had wasunt good enuf for you
all the love i gave was wothe as much as shit to you
all the times i cryd for you all the times i cut
was wothe as much as shit to you
as all the blood i spat on the floor pulld out my broken teeth
at the botom of a pit of glutones meneingless sex
you keept me in your keep
my “frends” think its fun to get a shag evrey day
but if that knew the consequences thade say fuck this no way
cos i gave you all the love in the world and you tost it away
all the things i […]
I am so so sick of being compared to my sisters. “SHE already has all her French credits, shes in grade 10!” “Look, SHE got an A on her test!” “You should be grateful that your sister is so involved in the school, it makes you look good!” just shut up.
I dont want to take all my high school courses in French, I dont have to. I get good grades, never below a B- Im a fair musician, Im a good writer, Im a fair artist, so you can shove it about how FANTASTIC my sisters are! I dont have many friends, I dont need […]
i felt it, it was obvious..maybe im just naive..
i honestly thought i was ganna die last night…
how did it not work:/
FUUUUUUCK.
I have been on medication (viibryd) for 6 weeks. doc says it will help. He also gave me clonopin for anxiety at work. I am 42 divorced, no kids, just a great dog who was thrown from a car window and i rescued him. I will not committ suicide and leave my dog. no one would care if i die, i come from a “traditional italian family” your not supposed to have depression, you are supposed to “snap out of it and smile” well i cant. and lord knows i’ve tried and tried and tried. I feel now that since i’ve been with this job […]
She fell apart over a small error
She lives her life, filled with terror.
She cuts her skin, like it’s paper.
People try, but no one can save her.
She can tie a noose.
She can get a gun.
She can find a knife.
And she’d be gone.
She could drown in a tub.
She could OD on drugs.
She could defy gravity.
But she’s no coward.
So she sits in her head.
Dreaming of dead.
wishing to go.
wanting it to be so.
And so she will wait.
And she will take the pain.
She will stay sane.
As the world goes insane.
Ever […]
I’m fourteen years old and currently in middle school. I’m being bullied by a boy in my Spanish class. I barely know this kid but he’s always bothering me. He says the meanest things to me and I just want him to leave me alone. I just mind my own business and talk to my friend, and he just makes rude comments or makes fun of things I say to my her and I wasn’t even talking to him. I haven’t done anything against him or given him any reason to hate me, yet he still does. He’s done this the whole year. He’s even […]
I’m a fourteen year old girl and I’m just not happy with my life right now. I have been selfharming for little over a year now on and off and some days I just want to commit suicide. My parents are going through a rough patch and I doubt they’ll make it through. I feel like I fail at everything I do. I have amazing friends who try to help but they don’t really understand. They tell me how much they’d miss me but I know that in a few years no one will know who I am. That doesn’t really bother me but I […]
I am 19 and I’ve been cutting myself since I was 15. I cut on my legs so that no one will see them. I do it to distract myself from the sadness and emptiness and the constant thought of suicide. I feel like I’m not going to amount to anything, not going to do anything great with my life and be a complete failure. I’ve kept it a secret all this time. This is my first year in college and one of my new friends found out what I’ve been doing. She’s been tring to get me to stop but she doesn’t know what see’s doing. She […]
Hi everyone.
My name is Teresa, and I am a Depressed teen….
Oh GAWD.. did i really just say that. . . . ok let me start over… let me be real with you guys… and girls.
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Hi, I’m Teresa. I am 17 years old. My birthday is April 4th. And I can promise you i won’t live past the age of 18.
I bet you all are curious why. I bet you all already know the reason. so does it really have to be said out loud? I think not.
lets continue.
My life sucks. I hate starting out so cliche. but this is one way to start that you […]
I’m doing a project about suicide awareness in school and it bothers me how many people really don’t understand suicide and think that you must be stupid and a horrible person to attempt/commit.
My greatest fear when thinking about taking my own life is the family I have with me and that care for me. I’m so lucky to have both my parents together still, and that would do anything for me. I also have a sister, brother in law, and two nieces whom all of I adore. I’m 24 years old and I feel like I’ve never experienced a normal life. I’m gay,and I also have other problems that make me self conscious of my appearance so I hate being in public or any places with many people, so I cant go to gay bars or any […]
and heres my reson to day at school the last lesion was dramer after the school day had finisht me and my g.c.s.e. grop stade behind to perfet are pees but on the fienel seen i frees in the midel of a line its like iv lost the power of spech for 10 mind numing secionds i stand ther trying to speek then i start agen like iv held my breth and im exhaeling rely fast then all the guys who are wondring wtf is going on start having a go at me i try to defend my self but im speeking jibrish that made them […]
I spend a lot of time wishing I was someone else and I’ve wasted a lot of my life doing so. Sometimes I think of myself but a better version of myself, better looking, more talented, an ideal social and home life. Other times I daydream of myself as a completely different person; wether it’s a sociable gay male living in California or pretty blonde city girl living in London, UK. I constantly see people and think ‘I’d give anything to be you’.
I can’t stop and it scares me because it’s not healthy and I’m afraid that I’m always going to hate who I am.
I […]
These days I am increasingly struggling to find a reason to keep going. Everytime I go outside I feel that everyone is looking and judging me, analysing my every awkward move. Walking on the pavement/sidewalk towards oncoming traffic is the worst as It just feels like a barrage of people staring at you, judging you. I hate thinking this way and I know its not rational, but I cant shake it, its like I am defined by my anxiety. Even when I succeed at something, theres always a voice saying I should have done better- endless quest for perfection? then what?  I think what is making […]
I could fight, but then I might
All too knowingly invite
Useless hope into this life
A life that isn’t right
Made of dark, afraid of light
Called to empty, endless night
A life that isn’t even life
I could plead, get on my knees
And beg my God to fill my need
But where is He now when I bleed?
And then I sit alone and read
Of those who in their pain secede
To death’s thirsty, luring greed
Let me follow where they lead
I could fake and lie and break
In secret, cuts and bruises make
To cope with a life I long to take
Hating every day I wake
Living only for your sake
Drowning in this burning lake
Sinking down […]