just have to say it I guess

My relationship with my partner of 12 years has failed.  I gave up my family and my culture to be with him in another country.  Somehow, I have managed to end up with no job, no career, no money and no prospects, with a 4 yearold and a 2 yearold in my care.  I have struggled with depression and the care of 2 kids while hubby kept going with his fancy career and now he wants the kids. I have nothing to offer – there is no money or recognition in being the mother of my children.  All the court wants to know is how I am going to provide for their financial and physical wellbeing. He has a loving family that supports him and the kids unconditionally, not so with me.  I am beat – I am about to lose my kids and it is going to kill me.  I cant even afford a divorce lawyer.  There isnt much more to say.  I hand them over at the end of the month.  God help me.