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27 and hopeless

by badfish 8/2/2013

written by badfish

I am a 27 year old man.Â I am writing this because I don’t know what else to do. I am sorry if this is extremely long but I feel as though I just have to get this out of me.Â I will understand ifÂ no one were to read this.

I often feel hopeless about everything in my life.Â As a child I grew up in a small town North of a major city.Â I had friends, played lots of sports but often felt like an outcast for no reason in particular.Â I would often become very angry if anyone rubbed me the wrong way.Â […]

8/2/2013 11 comments

I don’t know.

by walkthisworldalone 7/13/2013

written by walkthisworldalone

Hi, nobody’s even gonna read this but I guess it’s better to let it out.

I’m Lara, I live in the UK. I have a loving family, good friends and a pretty great life. I have a lot more than I need and i’m very grateful for what I have. But something just isn’t right. For two years now, i’ve been having thoughts of suicide and have been inflicting pain on myself. I don’t feel the pain anymore. Around the time I started having these thoughts, my friend was diagnosed with slight depression and bipolar disorder but her mood swings were far less severe than mine. […]

7/13/2013 3 comments

What am i living for ?

by calidreamin 7/8/2013

written by calidreamin

Im 20 years old and I’ve had thoughts of suicide since i was 15 years old. I dont have a long drawn out sad story or history of abuse of any kind. I have a loving family & a boyfriend but i have never felt more alone. I often ask myself “How can you have so much but still feel like you have nothing ” . I have never figured out the answer. Im just so unhappy it almost scares me how many times I’ve actually sat in my bathroom , held pills , razors etc. and almost ended my life. Some part of me […]

7/8/2013 1 comment

No particular reason

by hkl29 7/8/2013

written by hkl29

Well, I haven’t been looking around much here, but I thought that if I write it down, I might have a better picture of my situation.

Basically, there’s nothing wrong with my life. I got a nice apt., a cat, a loving BF and a Â great family. Even job is OK.

Thing is – I just don’t want to live anymore, I have no interest in seeing what will happen next, no plan for kids/children, no interest in finding a new job or studying (have already pursued a Master’s degree). In short, I just don’t care anymore. I don’t see the point of all this, I’m not […]

7/8/2013 1 comment

My final words

by ForeverLonely 6/6/2013

written by ForeverLonely

I’ve had this saved for some time now. Realised from the moment I thought it that one day I would use it. My family, especially my parents, have the right to know why I decided to do the unthinkable. They have no idea I’ve been researching it for months. Devious really. This is a material world and I want out.

To My dear loving family

Forgive him all for what heâ€™s done

A departed soul he has become

His pain and sufferingÂ so much so

He had no choice but to go

Young, loving and so very proud

But in the end was beaten by deaths dark […]

6/6/2013 2 comments

I’m gonna join the stars.

by VodkaAndRazors 5/10/2013

written by VodkaAndRazors

I have officially decided to make sure I kill myself this time. I don’t know exactly when, but it’s going to be soon. Â The only time I’ve tried it was around 6 months ago. I took a pack of razors to the alternative school I was attending at the time, went to the bathroom, and started cutting my arms. I only managed to get through the first layer of skin at first. I knew this wouldn’t be enough to bleed out so I took the razor and started slicing into one of the long wounds I had already made and I hear a knock at […]

5/10/2013 2 comments

I dont want to die…but living isnt my forte

by blacksheep777 3/31/2013

written by blacksheep777

I just dont feel like being anywhere. It seems as though i dont share the same values as those who inhabit this patch of earth alongside me. I feel like im in a constant state of purgatory, neither here nor there. The only reason im on this site is i can express myself to those who might possibly relate, although im not so sure about that either. Im a blessed individual with a loving family and a lot of opportunities laid before me. Im mentally and physically blessed and i feel selfish for cursing my existence but i havent met anyone who gets me. Everyone […]

3/31/2013 3 comments

So very tired

by lonelycalgary 3/21/2013

written by lonelycalgary

I have been off work for two days with a migraine.Â I work away from home so I can’t even be with “loved ones” when I am like this.Â I have no one to talk to when I am away and am getting so very tired.Â Thankfully I work in a job where killing myself is very easy and can be an “accident” so that someone will still get my life insurance.Â I have thought about killing myself so many times it would be strange to have a day without those thoughts.Â I don’t know why I feel this way, I have a loving family, […]

3/21/2013 1 comment

A final farewell

by puppy85899 1/27/2013

written by puppy85899

I like how I can vent about how I’m going to try and suffocate myself tonight. Nobody on here knows who I am. I have the perfect life. Loving family, no real reason to kill myself. Yeah,but I’m delusional. I Am insane. My parents think I’m the happy perfect child with straight A’s but no,I’m not. I have no friends and I barely am able to get up in the morning and go to school another day. I don’t live,I survive. So I decided to die.I’m not sure if ill go to hell or if atheists are right. I’m a very messed up person. My […]

1/27/2013 3 comments

Right now….

by EasilyHopeless 1/13/2013

written by EasilyHopeless

My Papa (Grandfather) has gone to sleep in his room.
My Daddy has the flu, he is laying down in bed.
My mother is working on coupons on the computer across the room.
My second youngest brother is on the couch near me reading a book he got for christmas.
My littlest brother is making mashed potatoes for dinner.
My dog is chewing on a rawhide.
My cat is with my dad.

And I am screaming. Silently shrieking.

My loving family goes on like this. How they cannot see the blade so blatently slashing at my gut I cannot imagine. That they don’t see my insides being […]

1/13/2013 4 comments

what’s wrong with me?

by youwouldntrealise 12/11/2012

written by youwouldntrealise

i do not know why i am so miserable.

i have everything i could ever need;

boyfriend
friends
loving family
‘talent’ in media
new tv
new computer
new camera
new clothes
a house to live in

why am i still upset? makes me feel even worse because… well, am i ungrateful?

12/11/2012 2 comments

I think it’s nearly time.

by Gumpy 10/31/2012

written by Gumpy

I’m not in a good mood today. It was a P.E day. We had to dance with boy partners and most of all of them i had was wanting to switch partners, meaning, i’m an unenthusiastic, worthless creep. I was depressed all day over one little thing. i’m so ridiculous. I wanted to cut myself all day, it was so painful to be me. These things, negative comments, just triggered me to want to kill myself. Anyway, i have a plan to. I don’t mean to give people ideas, but i just wanna know if it’ll work. One idea was to take an overdose of […]

10/31/2012 4 comments

I’m not OK

by SnowViolet 8/15/2012

written by SnowViolet

People think Iâ€™m happy, but Iâ€™m not. I never tell anyone about my feelings. So i just wanted to share my story here, and say what I donâ€™t have courage to say to people around me.

Apparently, I have a really good life. I have a loving family and lots of friends who care about me. Iâ€™m shy but I always try to be nice and people tend to like me. Iâ€™m a university student and get good marks, I have a part-time job and I still have some time for my hobbies. The problem is, Iâ€™m not happy with that. I donâ€™t know why Iâ€™m […]

8/15/2012 6 comments

So desperate!

by Jo 7/27/2012

written by Jo

Will a mix of diclofenic, codeine phosphate, ibuprofen, amitripiline,Â paracetamolÂ gabapentin and diazepam be enough to kill me outright.?

I canâ€™t get out of the house to get alcohol but have about 150 pills altogether. I have a very disabling, chronic physical condition that renders me in 24/7 severe pain and distress. I canâ€™t be helped and living is not an option. I have suffered too long like this and need it end for mine and my familyâ€™s sake. Please advise only if you can guide me if it will work. I have had counselling and hospital visits to no avail. My pain never ends and need to […]

7/27/2012 62 comments

Will this work?

by Jo 7/26/2012

written by Jo

I can’t get out of the house to get alcohol but have about 150 pills altogether. I have a very disabling, chronic physical condition that renders me in 24/7 severe pain and distress. I can’t be helped and living is not an option. I have suffered too long like this and need it end for mine and my family’s sake. Please advise only if you can guide me if it will work. I have had counselling and hospital visits to no avail. My pain never ends and need to know if this will definately work. Thank you.

I know a lot of people will respond with […]

7/26/2012 4 comments

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by Melissa Mendoza 6/21/2012

written by Melissa Mendoza

I Feel Lost, Confussed, BreathLess, & Its It’s Getting Harder To Right Down How I Feel Because I Can Never Find The Exact Words To Explain Any Of My Feelings, I Have Such A Great Life And A Loving Family But Yet This Feeling Always Seems To Creep Up On Me,..Honesly I Dont Know Where Or How Ima Go On With This…..

6/21/2012 2 comments

Wouldn’t it be nice if there were a “Life – Switch Off” button…

by nanashi gm 6/6/2012

written by nanashi gm

I always have great imagination, i can simulate what’s going to happen in the near future

but what i see is always a dull boring life, of course i also tried challenging and less predictable activities like mountain climbing and ruins exploring, but in the end nothing happened and i went back to my boring life

I always wished i would just kick the bucket during one of my journeys, but to no avail. I have always survived and while it was a refreshing experience, the excitement won’t last even for a day, daily life is just too boring god……..

as much as i wished for a “switch […]

6/6/2012 11 comments

minutes to midnight

by tphg 5/29/2012

written by tphg

today I feel incredibly weak. I’m trying to get on track by forcing myself to eat and work out and keep busy but today I feel like I’m staring at the finish line, hesitating to cross it.

Work is tedious, there’s too much of it, keeps me overly busy. Leaves me with large gaps of time to think about the idea of working and how stupid it is for me to be doing it considering that I want my life ended.

I think the same thing about my life; why bother, because I don’t want any of this? I don’t want to save my game, but just […]

5/29/2012 3 comments

It will end in 2 days

by ItsOver 5/28/2012

written by ItsOver

I dont know why i am writing to this place, but im going to end this existence in 2 days. I going to to this by hanging because it seems quite peaceful way to go besides of jumping and cutting. Â I have read i think to many news and personal stories and i really do know what i am doing. I have a job and a loving family but i am an idealist, like my psychiatrist said and i just cant live like this anymore. My body i just a burden to me, i have tried everything to fix my life, make it near ideal […]

5/28/2012 10 comments

Just one big nightmare

by noface 5/12/2012

written by noface

Â I wish I could turn a clock and go back to the day before I was born. I wish I could make my mom and dad to change their minds and not have another child.

Now I am hanging here, trying to keep up whit life. I always end up crashing down. ItÂ´s funny that I know that I can never commit suicide but IÂ´m thinking about death awfully lot.

I just wish that I could be someone else- someone who could just smile and be happy, someone who didnâ€™t care that there is no sense on this world, someone who would just enjoy the fact of […]

5/12/2012 2 comments

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