Im 13 years old and ive been thinking about suicide for a while now .. my grandad passed away in april and i was a huge fan of michael jackson who died at the end of june .. i keep crying at the tragic things that have happend to me .. i want to end my life so i can rest forever instead of my friends mocking me and saying that im obsessed with michael jackson .. i cant even talk to my best friend about my suicide attempt because shel just get mad and think im being silly .. ive always wanted a child and get pregnant and i dont want to kill myself because of that .. ive a whole life ahead of me and i bet people will say im just going through a rough patch at the moment but im not i have a feeling this is going to go on for a very long time .. i just want it all to end and fast yaanno ..
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I’m incredibly sorry to hear about your grandfather. Nobody your age should lose someone that close to you. However, Michael Jackson has absolutely nothing to do with this. Yeah, it was sad, but you need to get that reasoning out of your head right now.
You’ve got this entire website to vent and rant to. I know it’s not the same as close friends, but that’s what we’re all there for.
Keep thinking about your future. Geeze, I just feel bad that you’re so young and feel this way. You have so much life to live yet. If you need me at all, email me. I’d love to talk.
If you want a child and consider that a reason to live, use that as motivation to keep your thoughts of wanting to die under control. I know I sound very hypocritical but read my post “No reason to live, things have only gotten worse” I consider myself broken beyond fixing, but you aren’t. Losing your parents is hard and losing the person you look up to is even worse, but at least you have friends. The only reason they say you’re silly is because they don’t understand, but they do still care.
i kinda have the same problem, i can’t talk to my friends about how i really feel. the reaction is the same “u must be crazy, killing yourself?” but they don’t know how it feels. i you want to talk to someone i can give my msn. tipinmese@hotmail.com or you can send e-mail if you like.
You have done such a great job of expressing your sadness and your pain. Your writing makes me hurt with you. I’m not sure who there is in your life who can listen to your story, but I know we all want to be taken seriously and for someone to understand us. Though I don’t know you, I do know that God loves you and has a purpose and a plan for your life.
Hi, I’m Nick. I’m 13, I’ve had suicidal thoughts as well.
And experience them from time to time.. But..
Life isnt worth throwing away, I understand its painful losing people..
But would they want you to die?
Your friends, family, everyone would just be devastated by it.
If its painful on you having people you care about dying, Think how they would feel if you died?
Try to do things that make you happy.
Go outside, exercise.
Look, I have a lot to say. I would love to talk to you about it.
retrodoodle@live.ca
Add it if you want. I can be the friend you need to talk to. 🙂
When I was your age (I’m currently 25) I had the same feelings and emotions that you are going through. Chris Farley, Phil Hartman, and several other people I idolized had died. I had problems fitting in with people at school (I was a class clown that was overweight and constantly getting in fights because boys were mean to me). Eventually, I lost the weight by going out for sports and boys were nicer to me because I didn’t let them bother me anymore. You’re in a very difficult age right now, but you should try to enjoy it as best as you can. When you are my age, there are financial issues, family issues, work issues, etc. Sometimes, it’s difficult to get food on the plate and buy your children clothes. I suggest you try to connect with your parents more. I wish I would’ve. Maybe I wouldn’t have gotten into so much trouble later in life.