Hi all, i’m new. i’m feeling suicidal, having been on and off for some time. But for me it is a source of hope. I feel as if the universe is telling me that my presence is no longer required. I can’t find work, i’m running out of money, i have serious health problems and no insurance and i will probably lose my house. my great fear is that i will be forced to live in my car. i think if i was told today that i had terminal cancer i would kiss the doctor. it would be such a relief.
Planning my death gives focus to my life. I am slowly giving my things away, cleaning and fixing up the house. I keep job hunting, but I really don’t expect to find anything. if you can no longer support yourself, I think choosing to die is a rational thing — even responsible — thing to do.
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If you are forced to live in your car, maybe you should drive someplace nice, someplace you’ve wanted to go.
Go into a restaurant or some other local place in that new area and see if they could use a hand for a day. Just an odd job to put a few dollars in your pocket washing dishes, cleaning up. Work hard when they say yes and ask if they’d like to see you back tomorrow.
Put a sign on your car window, saying this is my home, looking for work, willing to relocate. Or something clever. Maybe work is looking for you.
hi there i would like to start by saying is death something you choose a way of getting out or is it your last resort. many of us are faced with the decision to die or strive on to complete our mission in life and sometimes that mission requires for us to stay alert and alive. someone someplace needs your guidence and attention crying out for help. someone who is in your shoes and don’t know the steps to take to get out. that someone could be your niece, nephew, uncle, or even future kids. i know my mission and that is to die protecting the people i love most and for my country because i believe in good people. email me friend and lets talk. virgak47@yahoo.com or gmail me at virgak47@gmail.com. i want to let you know that someone cares anough to stop what they are doing on their job to write to you concerning your suicidal thoughts. Now the real question is would you do the same for me, take time out of your schedule to talk to me. maybe this could be the biggest turnabout in your life.
Peace and love friend:
PFC Kimble, Anthony T.
Hi,
I’m sorry for the way things are going for you. It sounds like you’re going through a really tough time. All I can say is hang in there. I think there are many people who are in your position with the recession. I just think you should really think through your decision before you do something drastic. Maybe you can look into some counseling or financial aid options in your city? You won’t be doing the world any favor by committing suicide. The world will be losing a valuable member of society. Hopefully this difficult time will pass for you soon. Just have faith!
Good luck and I hope you feel better.
I actually find it depressing that we live in a world where a person who can’t support themselves is considered a burden. I just can’t find it in myself to equate the value of my life to how much money I have or don’t have anymore. Sometimes I wish I could go up to the person who came up with this money idea and told ’em how fuck up it is. I think it’s terrible that people can’t live in tents and be okay with it. Terrible that people should be embarrassed to ask for food when there’s so much just thrown away. Terrible that we should always keep up with the latest fashion even when our old clothes aren’t even worn out or dirty. It’s not like I’m trying to promote communism or anything, just that I’m sad that money seems to be the only worth I have. I know there’s more to people than that, because there are people that have done great things even before/without money.