im 14 and i tried slitting my wrists but it didnt work……..i even took a REALLY hot bath before i did and…well……yea didnt work. my moms a ***** she calls me names all the time and hits me, my dad raped me when i was 5 then left i have litterally no friends everyone calls me “sooty suicide” because of my large scars on my wrists, i just wanna die so i dont have to dream of all the horror and shitty-ass memories i had. my boyfriend of 3 months cheated on me, with my best friend…. im uglier than the child of rosie o’donnel & amy winehouse, im also kinda well…..fat and it gets thrown in my face all the time. when people found out what i did they didnt even seem to care, all they did is laugh…even my one and only “friend”….. my mother gave me up, but now she has me again and im just sick of living no one will miss me at all i know they wont….. i was in the hospital for 2 days and no one came to visit me or even call me……i tried to hang myself but the plastic belt broke and kinda cut my neck alittle bit, i tried pills but they were out-dated and didnt work…….i ran infront of a car, but they stopped and called me a stupid fat kid……..jumped out my window, fucked up my right ankle……and last but not least, i tried to drown myself but my little sister walked in and told my mother….sometimes i think of going to school with a gun and shooting all the people who ever made fun of me, which is just about everybody & finally when im done…..shooting myself in the head. i mean nobody wants a ugly fat chick to be their girl-friend. my names gabrielle and im waiting for anyone to answer me……please tell me how i can end my sickeningly pathetic existence.
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my friend of over 3 years died of ovarian cancer about 6 months ago and she was my everything, my sister, my best friend, even my role model. i miss her so much….everytime i cry i hear voices that sound like her in my head saying my name over and over again i want it to stop…i want it all to stop, and yes im in therapy but tht shit dont work.
DO NOT do what the previous person here has posted. It’s not the answer. Get yourself checked into a psych ward immediately. You’re dealing with a lot more problems than a therapist can handle.
have hope.
You need help and that first persons advice is disgusting, you do not egg on a suicidal person it is cruel because when they do it you will feel pretty shitty. I really sympathize for you really I do, your father is disgusting for doing such a thing, but yes as dan said you need to see a psychiatrist and get yourself into proper care immediately, if i was living in this same situation I would be beside myself, I still hope you are living and breathing and will get a chance to read this.
You could try running away if everything is getting too dangerous at home, the friends that call you names are not friends, the people around you should not be focused on, people have the tendency to ruin other peoples lives, such as your own. The best advice is to omit into a hospital where you will be safe and also they will provide help if you co operate with them. You will be alot better in special care, please have hope people living in horrible conditions usually end up being the most fortunate, look at celebrities and people like Oprah.
You are not the only one, you are still very young so give yourself a chance and get some help. Its good to act wisely instead of giving up. Also think again when you say no one will miss you, you have shared your story with the world now, anyone can see this post and honestly if you were to do anything I would be very upset even though I do not know you, I really wish I could help people like you, this is one thing I aspire to do, listen to the people here just not the idiots egging you on you may think they are trying to help you but they have no sense of courteousness.
Please listen to me, stay safe, try get help thats all we can suggest here
Sapphire x
Please dont give up on your self. All those kids at your school that laugh at you will feel very guilty about it when they get older. Your mother sounds like a terrible person, but she wont be in your life forever. And your father is the scum of the earth, be grateful hes not in your life , he doesnt deserve to be.I agree with the above post, you need some help imediatly , seek out a therapist, your school should have some kind of counsler Or got to a phsyc ward as the previous poster suggested. Your a good person and you deserve to be happy.