fucking life

I can’t no more. lately fucking everything is coming down on me,if it wasn’t enough i’m feeling sick, having suicidal thoughts. the most sad part is i aint brave enough to do it, so i’m literally trapped in hell. I wanna let go but somehow i can’t, i wanna change things but i’m not strong enough to do so. i’m feeling so pathetic, like a little ball for my enviroment to play with. i praying every day thatt god might either give me the strength to do it or the strength to change everything, because i can’t go on like this