Mother, you have your stresses
you share them with me
but my stresses stay inside
Father, you are miserable
and let anyone with ears know
my misery stays quietly in my heart
Brother, you are thoroughly disappointed
and make it well known
my disappointments silently weigh down on me
Sister, you weep out your sorrows
while I listen gently
my tears are silent and unseen
It appears that I’m alright
I’m holding it all together
well adjusted and quite content
Sometimes I try
try to open up
never really comes out
can’t tell anyone I’m dying
Mom you know I’m stressed
its okay though
you tell me the appropriate prayers
Father you don’t really see me
my misery is well hidden
Brother you know
some of the disappointments
but my problems are minuscule in comparison
Sister you know my sorrow
but you never truly feel it
and you leave me lonely in the end
No one notices my quiet depression
nobody hears my silent cries of desperation
unable to truly express it
and be taken seriously
so now what?
will I wake them up
with my death
get the love I desire and deserve
when I’ll be unable to cherish it
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I know it’s hard. Feeling like the least important one all of the time, always helping out others. But just think, if you take your own life, sure, you will get the love from your family that you so desire (and deserve), but you’ll be dead. You won’t feel that love, and you’ll never feel any relief.
sometimes i think it would be better, a life of invisibility vs a death and nonexistence. At least in death I don’t have to feel alone or anything at all for that matter. In life I have to keep hoping for the love and always end up disappointed
I can understand where you’re coming from, I’m not going to tell you you’re wrong, I just feel that at least in life, no matter how difficult it is at times, there is always hope, there always will be hope. In death you will never have that. But isn’t hope for something better the whole idea of suicide? I can’t promise you it will get better tomorrow or at all for that matter, but I can tell you that I strongly believe that if you continue to live your life, eventually you will look back on moments like this and say “thank god I never did it”.
I’ve recently found that there are actually so many beautiful (& even mysterious) things in this planet Earth of ours,
from the curious mother nature,
into the endless journey of science, spirituality,
Into the beautiful artistic creations, culture, and human expressions,
the yet untapped vast mystery of this planet, our body, and universe
But in our real life, we always unfortunately just seem to be surrounded by the negativity that tends to keep closed lids of those beautiful things in our Earth.
I am actually planning that I might will flee away from my very ‘restricting’ family, and maybe to pursue my passion (Purpose), or basically travel somewhere new..
Hey, it might be worth to try, especially if u’re already be BRAVE enough to take the risk to end your one only earthly life..why not give it ONE try first?