How I felt today.

So I took my sleeping pill in the early hours of the morning, and it kept me in peace until 8am. I woke up, drowsy. I think I drifted off again.. til 10am. But when I woke up then, I felt weird.

I felt lost, today. I feel empty, there so much pain and thoughts going on in my head but.. I can’t make them come out. I can’t cry today, I can’t feel. I feel disconnected from the world, like I’m not a part of it.

Even punching things, or cutting, didn’t make me cry or have them come out. I didn’t even feel the pain.

Today, I feel lifeless, yet unfortunatly I’m not lifeless.