I dont like my face, but owell. and most guys dont like talking about their feelings, and your just one of those awesome guys that will talk about their feelings.
I was actually considering it, but I just snapped out… again. Soon I’ll fall back into depression and maybe then I’ll do it, but for now all I can do is try to help.
I know what it is like to live a pull of a trigger away from suicide, and it is painful. No one should live like this, and although I do think suicide is a fair and final exit, it’s not necessarily the only one.
It hurts me when I see everyone here in so much pain, so depressive, that sometimes I’m not sure I should be frequenting the website at all, but that would be selfish of me. I feel like I can help, even though I most likely won’t change anyone’s mind, but I’ll keep fighting.
If only all these people could feel good once more… I have to keep trying.
Ya, I try helping people but it always seems to back fire back at me. This past week I’ve been in this mood where I really don’t care about anything. If someone asked me to do something this week I would say sure to it, just because i dont care what happens to me anymore. my mind is awful right now.
This week I’m feeling pretty cheerful and hopeful. Maybe life has something for me. Next week I might not be so happy and not really know why. And it attracts more negative memories and emotions and it just bundles up like a snowball.
It’s tough. Maybe some pills will do my trick. They say depression is a real disease that can be cured with pills. Who knows, I’ve heard people say it doesn’t work, but you can’t fight science, huh?
Too bad I don’t consider seeking medical help a viable option.
Why don’t you try pills? my mom has depression and takes pills for it, and shes pretty normal most of the time. She doesnt know whats going on in my mind and i havent told her so no one really know what i have.
I don’t know. I always thought psychologists or psychiatrists were useless. I know they can help, but I think that going over and actually paying someone to help me fight my emotions is like admitting defeat. Not that I look down on anyone who does it, I really don’t, I just can’t see my self doing it.
I take pills to sleep, and panic attacks, they are both natural, so I guess nothing hardcore. I don’t think i could ever open up enough to tell someone face to face that i have some problems, I’m not a very open person to people i know.
Sometimes I think it’s so painfully obvious, but no one seems to notice.
I kind of hope someone would notice and ask me. They’d have to insist a bit, but I know would end up opening up, but that hasn’t happened and I don’t think it will.
But I found and escape gauge. Whenever I hit the gym in the afternoon instead of midnight (started doing this about 2 or 3 weeks ago) it really keeps my spirits up throughout the day. Whenever I don’t go to the gym (like yesterday) I start getting low. It’s a double win my way, I guess. I get fit and stay on top of the depression.
I hope you find something that helps you through your lows.
Thanks evergone. And ya music helps me through everything and so does reading, i read to escape, and i would run but i cant because i have heart problems.
I like screamo music. My favorite bands are Avenged Sevenfold Whitechapel Suicide Silence and Bring Me The Horizon. And books, I like comics, like Naruto. And fantasy books. And thank you snoochiez.
The only screamo music I’ve heard and really liked were from Metalocalypse, this cartoon on Cartoon Network ,,, which i just realized doesn’t air anymore,, sigh,, My favorite bands are The Postal Service and Pinback, check it out!! Naruto? I watched the first 150 episodes , japanese version, ROCK LEE WAS MY FAVORITE WATAAAA! I heard the comics is way cooler then the actual episodes themselves though. Me I like cartoons, lol, there are only a few worth watching though that still airs, Catdog, Dexter’s Laboratory, Rugrats, and,,, oh yeah X-Men the animated series from the 90’s ( I’m a 90’s guy baby ), and Cowboy Bebop. Well I thought I’d share,,,, that’s pretty much all I can do on here…
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It’s always extra sad to see a pretty face fade.
Wish I could help you.
It’s not very pretty to me.
Oh, trust me, it’s pretty.
I don’t want to objectify you, but you are very pretty.
Funny how most people in this website are girls. I feel like I’m the only guy around.
I dont like my face, but owell. and most guys dont like talking about their feelings, and your just one of those awesome guys that will talk about their feelings.
Removed the picture already? Well, just know my compliment was sincere.
Well, I only talk here. I come here cause I can’t open up, no matter how hard I try.
Maybe one day I’ll summon the courage to express all my pain and see if anyone really cares, but I doubt it.
It’s always easier to talk about my own feelings when I’m safe and sound behind my monitor.
I guess I’m not one of those awesome guys, after all. Haha.
haha yupp you are. And wow i dont even kno how i removed it.
Haha.
Any chance you won’t exit soon?
Now that I’ve seen your picture I think it’d be a bit tough.
I’m not exiting anytime soon tehe.
I’m glad to hear.
I was actually considering it, but I just snapped out… again. Soon I’ll fall back into depression and maybe then I’ll do it, but for now all I can do is try to help.
I know what it is like to live a pull of a trigger away from suicide, and it is painful. No one should live like this, and although I do think suicide is a fair and final exit, it’s not necessarily the only one.
It hurts me when I see everyone here in so much pain, so depressive, that sometimes I’m not sure I should be frequenting the website at all, but that would be selfish of me. I feel like I can help, even though I most likely won’t change anyone’s mind, but I’ll keep fighting.
If only all these people could feel good once more… I have to keep trying.
Ya, I try helping people but it always seems to back fire back at me. This past week I’ve been in this mood where I really don’t care about anything. If someone asked me to do something this week I would say sure to it, just because i dont care what happens to me anymore. my mind is awful right now.
Would you mind if I ask what’s bugging you?
I don’t really kno. I just feel like i don’t belong anywhere.
Yeah, that’s usually what I feel too.
This week I’m feeling pretty cheerful and hopeful. Maybe life has something for me. Next week I might not be so happy and not really know why. And it attracts more negative memories and emotions and it just bundles up like a snowball.
It’s tough. Maybe some pills will do my trick. They say depression is a real disease that can be cured with pills. Who knows, I’ve heard people say it doesn’t work, but you can’t fight science, huh?
Too bad I don’t consider seeking medical help a viable option.
Why don’t you try pills? my mom has depression and takes pills for it, and shes pretty normal most of the time. She doesnt know whats going on in my mind and i havent told her so no one really know what i have.
I don’t know. I always thought psychologists or psychiatrists were useless. I know they can help, but I think that going over and actually paying someone to help me fight my emotions is like admitting defeat. Not that I look down on anyone who does it, I really don’t, I just can’t see my self doing it.
Have you ever tried pills yourself?
I take pills to sleep, and panic attacks, they are both natural, so I guess nothing hardcore. I don’t think i could ever open up enough to tell someone face to face that i have some problems, I’m not a very open person to people i know.
Same here.
Sometimes I think it’s so painfully obvious, but no one seems to notice.
I kind of hope someone would notice and ask me. They’d have to insist a bit, but I know would end up opening up, but that hasn’t happened and I don’t think it will.
But I found and escape gauge. Whenever I hit the gym in the afternoon instead of midnight (started doing this about 2 or 3 weeks ago) it really keeps my spirits up throughout the day. Whenever I don’t go to the gym (like yesterday) I start getting low. It’s a double win my way, I guess. I get fit and stay on top of the depression.
I hope you find something that helps you through your lows.
You are pretty
Thanks evergone. And ya music helps me through everything and so does reading, i read to escape, and i would run but i cant because i have heart problems.
What kind of music and books?
Well, I have to run off to sleep now. If you want to talk about anything feel free to e-mail me: lifethroughdeath @ hotmail . com
Have a nice one. I hope you cheer up!
Indeed you are beautiful. If you don’t mind me saying.
I like screamo music. My favorite bands are Avenged Sevenfold Whitechapel Suicide Silence and Bring Me The Horizon. And books, I like comics, like Naruto. And fantasy books. And thank you snoochiez.
The only screamo music I’ve heard and really liked were from Metalocalypse, this cartoon on Cartoon Network ,,, which i just realized doesn’t air anymore,, sigh,, My favorite bands are The Postal Service and Pinback, check it out!! Naruto? I watched the first 150 episodes , japanese version, ROCK LEE WAS MY FAVORITE WATAAAA! I heard the comics is way cooler then the actual episodes themselves though. Me I like cartoons, lol, there are only a few worth watching though that still airs, Catdog, Dexter’s Laboratory, Rugrats, and,,, oh yeah X-Men the animated series from the 90’s ( I’m a 90’s guy baby ), and Cowboy Bebop. Well I thought I’d share,,,, that’s pretty much all I can do on here…