I have known for sometime meaning many a years being I am 53 That ending my own life is my option and have had a few blundered attemts. 2006 being my last real event of doing so from a suffocation chamber I made on my own but ended up strapped to a gurnie and hauled away to a hospital.
From another post a few days ago I mentioned my plans to want to get things in order in the next few months, such as getting a will to make certain my remains are to be used for organ donations & the left overs to whatever sciences want them. Being in a major medical research city they will be used for certain.
I have decided tonight to put option 2 into effect within 2 days. That is hanging myself from a specific bridge and I have many to choose from though. Since I live in the city of bridges (Pittsburgh) #Factoid_ we have more bridges than any other city in the world  Back to option 2 I need to go purchace a 1/2 inch rope to make my hangman’s noose with the proper length, which is 9 feet 2 inches for my height & weight, to be certain I get that snapped neck effect. Here’s my brigde of choice I have known would be the 1 if I used this option http://www.historicbridges.org/truss/smithfield/ Â
So if or when my anguish becomes to unbearable or just things keep me from following through with option 1, which is the Exit Bag I can walk out my door hop on the trolley be on the bridge within 15-20 minutes from my door with my rope & hook ready to go froma small backpack. I of course would call 911 just prior to my leap to have some best get over to where I am to cut me down. doing this late at night I can be pretty sure it won’t make a news worthy story.
Whatever method I’ll be certain of success this time around. After a few failed events these last 5 days I have done research thouroghly.
Damn here I am again even after getting getting up today feeling good for me that I wanted to take a shower and clean up and it’s been a week since I showered because I had to due to going out a few hours helping a neighbor.
life more than just sucks
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Best of luck, mate.
I’ll not attempt to stop you, it seems so futile. Your mind is set.
I wish I could shake your hand and be with you until your last second. Approval and acceptance can go I long way and I’m sure it would easy your pain in your last few minutes.
Sweet dreams. At least you’ll be rid of your paint.
Im terrified of screwing up an attempt and ending up worse off and everyone knowing and getting locked up in a psych ward 🙁
If I ever do go through I’ll shoot myself with a hollow point bullet. That’s a sure death.
Just for added security (ha) I’d use a shotgun.
If my finaces are in order to get the legal will ( fookin attornny’s aren’t cheap the pukes) I have chosen July 4th for non US citizens This is our national day of independance. So when I use the Exit bag and call 911 just b4 pulling bag down I’ll be certain not to be found before the required 5 minutes are needed to succeed. The cops are so busy in the evening here with fireworks going off and all the calls the have coming in I’m counting on a slow response and tons of the police will be down in the main part of the city due to the major fireworks disply held here
@crying I been there and done that, kinda sucks.
So are you gonna use the helium with exit bag method?
Best of luck, Dazed.
It’s all I can do. I know it counts for nothing, but you have my respect.
Yeah thats what scares me 🙁
that is my intention now, I need to make certain 1st with some research if the suffocation would not interfere with others to use my organs for those who really need them. If it is an issue then hangman’s the way I’ll go. I spent a few months pickin up dead bodies for Dade County, which is where Miami is located. So I know what it looks like afterwards with brain & bone fragments splattered about. I really don’t desire to leave that mess to anyone
Im scared of heights or else i would probaly done same thing.
Whoa, Ray! DON’T phone the police before using the Exit Bag. You go unconscious quickly but it can take over 40 minutes for the brain to die. Police would respond quickly to a suicide no matter what time of year.
The down side with the Exit Bag is if you’re found too soon and the bag’s removed you can still be alive but have SEVERE brain damage. You don’t want to attempt suicide then not only fail but end up with an even worse quality of life. The Exit Bag can cause brain damage very quickly before death. IMO it’s too risky to inform anybody right before you do it who could stop it’s completion.
You have my respect too. I’m trying, pretty hard to get my mind set to do it, and everytime it’s either interrupted or I just worry that theres something I haven’t sorted out yet, that someone will have to deal with because of me.
I’m glad that on this site, no-one sits there telling you not to do something, but rather, respects you and wishes you the best in whatever you decide to you.
Good luck, Ray. I hope you find peace.
thanks solus