Hello everyone. I posted on this site a few years ago under a different name and after reading your guys posts recently, I decided to post a lil bit about my life. For the past couple months i’ve been feelin extremely suicidal, like if I had a gun in my house or had easy access to a gun I woulda blew my brains out a long fucking time ago!! I’m on edge and extremely paranoid.. Paranoid about what?? I DONT FUCKING KNOW. Just in general. I ignore most of my friends phone calls because of my paranoia and barely leave my parents house and im a 23 yr old man.. How fucking pathetic rite? My therory is that my behavior is due to multiple concuscions from my past because I was involved with the sport of boxing for a while and I had my last head trauma just last summer from drunken bike riding with my buddies. What a douche bag rite?? lol. And my ex gf leaving me b4 Christmas didnt help much neither.. My psychitrist ( or however u spell it) disagrees with my head trauma therory and he just wants to throw a bunch ofr meds in my face so now im addictd to ambiem ( and i knew that shit would happen.) I’ve been down the whole anti depressant path b4 and dont wanna do that again cuz all those meds are garbage.. Oh yeah, and i also got diagnosed with ulcerative proctitus recently. To add to that, my right eye’s retina is fucked up. Annnnd to addd to thatttt, i get chronic sinus infections and have a deviated septum… Wooooo I love my life!!! I’ll stop ranting now.
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That’s not pathetic or anything at all. I’m not sure what ambiem or some of the other things are, but can’t those be treated in any way? I know it’s always difficult to live with any sort of illness or sickness, but you have to hang in there. If your friends are calling you, you should pick up and talk to them. Maybe go out with them and stuff, so your paranoia goes away some. Lots of people live with their parents these days, partly because the economy is still bad. It won’t be good again for probably another 2-3 years, or so my teacher once told me. You have friends who bother to call you and stuff, so you should just talk to them too.
the reason stopped answering and barely talkin to them cuz i feel like they just dont understand what i have to go thru
You ever smoke weed?
yea, i been smokin on and off since i was like 13.. why?
Weed make’s people paranoid
& give p[eople paink attact’s
yea but i feel paranoid and all that even when im not smokin
wow yh lay off drugs if youre paranoid, legal or otherwise.
its like my insomnia, they wana put me on some pills but ill sort it out myself, im beholden to no one and nothing.
looks like you need to stop wasting time and money on a what ever its spelt as, a shrink basically. only you can really sort out your issues, no ones going to truly know what youre going through so maybe you should stop trying to find someone who does and go to the other end of the spectrum, go out clubbing in the dodgyess club in town and love it despite everything you hate about it.
no one will no you and no one will care so just go there, have a good time and forget your issues. i know its easier said than done but just throw yourself in the deep and see if you float, and if you dont? walk along the seabed
laurie thats how i feel, i try to tell my parents they’re are wasting their money on shrinks cuz they’re the ones paying. and im not sure about the paranoia thing, it could be the environment i grew up in and the kind of environment im currently around. and its hard to go out clubbing and all that cuz of my situation… but yea i’ll keep u in mind and shoot u an email if i need 2 talk to someone.
if you wanna chat im here at lauriejohnson1@hotmail.co.uk