I guess I am currently thinking about suicide, and I think  I am  probably going to. Here are my choices of how:
- Pills. OD. I have two bottles of sleeping pills next to my bed just waiting for me.
- Hanging. I could easily hang myself on the tree in our backyard.
- Blood loss. I could cut so much I could loss enough blood to finally get out of this.
- Gun shot. My dad owns quite a few guns, I know how to use all.
I cut quite often. Never on my wrists, my family could easily find out. I have serve depression, bi polar, and major anger issues. I guess I’m on here to tell my story day by day, until I’m gone.
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Well, I’ll be here to read it.
I have bi polar disorder, although self-diagnosed, and I know it’s hard to pinpoint the issue when you feel down. It comes and goes and you just get frustrated.
If you’re going to do it, do it the fast way. I’d say gunshot with a hollow point bullet would be ideal, but that’s my 2 cents.
I am really liking the idea of OD-ing….I have been on drugs prescribed by doctors all my life. I’ve always had a fascination when it comes to pills, and how they can make you feel.
I wish I could help you.
Sometimes I feel so powerless in this website. So much people hurt inside and I can’t do anything to seethe the pain.
It is painful to see so much pain and do nothing. Talking to a random strange rarely helps, but, well, I’ll keep trying.
I just hope that whatever you choose, you go in peace. If you want to talk, I’ll always be around.
where do you live?
i mean as in what state?
you should try the exit bag with helium. That’s the one everyone’s talking about and it’s supposed to be enjoyable and painless.
Just curious, can you tell us your story? What led you to suicide?
About OD, I once experimented with sleeping pills (diphenhydramine hcl). I wasn’t trying to die, I just wanted to see where my limit was. The regular adult dosage is 50mg – not to exceed 300mg/day. So I took 25 pills (625mg).
I don’t think I came anywhere close to death. Instead of sleeping, I was up for 6 hours freaking out &banging walls. It felt like I was being suffocated in my skin.
So I guess I’d advise against the sleeping pill method. At least in my experience it was NOT the way they show it in the movies.
I live in Michigan and i will tell you my story. And scooby not all sleeping pill have the same effects. There is this one sleeping pill that makes you see things that aren’t there, I took it once, and my mom takes it every night.
My choice of how is by,, Injecting myself with COBRA VENOM. Speaking of seeing things that aren’t there, I once did shroom, when I was still,,, alive. And I had one particular vision that stood out the most, there was a lushious tree in front of me, and with every blink I took, the tree became less and less, it was dying with each blink I took until there were no more leaves left…. it’s strange because that vision,, embodies the way my life has become. It was like somekind of ,, psychic vision thing. Anyways,,, Hi =| , please do tell your story, if you’re ready.