Not sure what I’m doing here. Last Saturday I decided that it was time. After many years of living with the urge to take my own life and just as many years trying to find happiness, I’ve surrendered. If I haven’t managed to find a way to be happy by now, not likely that I will in the future and well…..I’m tired of it…..I actually felt serene. Yesterday I procured myself 2 g of KCN. Â Â I feel compelled to get my things in order first. Write up a will, pay bills, cancel cards and its may seem silly but clean my apartment and go through my things to make things easier for my family.
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I had a similar feeling the other day. I used to think suicide was really stressful, now I am fine with the idea of just letting go. I think the feeling alone can give me enough strength to finally end it all. I know the people around me may feel devastated but I will be doing them a favour in the long run.
Please don’t do this. You can find happiness. It is possible. Please talk with a counselor or your family. They care about you. I know it can be hard, but when you do find happiness in life, it is worth it.
Seen a psychologist, been on meds, spoke to friends….its all a band-aid. No one can talk you into being happy or finding meaning in your life. I keep coming back to the same place.
Then you need to find meaning and happiness. Search them out, they can be found.
Please hold on. Your friends and family care about you, even strangers on here care about you. No one will be better off without you. You are a valuable human being, and I can promise you that you are loved and cared about more than you could possibly imagine.
add me and we can talk. thfc181@hotmail.co.uk
It’s not silly to get your things in order before you die. Terminally ill people do it all the time. It just shows you care for your family and want things to run more smoothly after you die. I will warn you the prices for getting different wills done is more than I thought. Ouch. ><
It's smart to get wills done whether you're end is near or is still unknown. Anyone can die or become severely ill or injured at any time. Living wills and power of attorneys are important- especially if you're a "do not resuscitate" believer.