Honestly as I think everythings getting better everythings alright it just crashes back down on you and there Is nothing you can do about it, I’m suicidal again and I don’t even have time to think anymore I just do what I please even if it makes things worse I don’t mean to I can’t cope through all of thus again not another time not again not with out you by my side. I don’t even know how I’m still here why Is my heart still beating when it has nothing to beat for besides  you.. If I loose you, I loose everything. I can’t cop. Everything and everyone is now useless to me, I can’t take my heart beating one last time, this will be my last month my last month of horror then I shall move to a better place were no one can bother me and no one can bos me around anymore were I can just dream and dream day and night I can have my own world in my head with out people judging me with out pathetic Bitchs like you, with out a family that think they own me. Â