Hang.

I cant take this anymore. she said she cant talk to me because she has a boyfriend and he would get mad. she didnt tell me who it was though. great, another boyfriend. well she obviously cares not about me, so theres no reason for me to live! so i grab the rope, i already know how to tie the hangmans noose so this will be easy. i tie the knot, go get the ladder and attatch it to the ceiling. i climb the ladder, place the rope around my neck. as im doing so, i think about what im leaving in this world. i am leaving all the pain, all the suffering. i am leaving behind all the lonliness. i am leaving this cruel, unforgiving world which is much better off without me. i leave behind the note, telling whoever finds me to tell her that i did this because of  how shes treated me, but i will always love her. this can either happen three ways. way number 1, when i hang myself, i break my neck and die quick and painlessly. way number 2, i dont break my neck and i just wait there, slowly suffering, suffocating, until i finally die. it doesnt matter which one of these happens, for i will end up dead anyways. or way number 3, which i fear could happen. the rope breaks and i fall to the ground. possibly injured, but still living. i do not want this to happen because now, continuing to live will be worse than dying. luckily, 3 doesnt happen. i successfully committed suicide. my body just stays there. suspended above the ground for hours until somebody dicovers what i have done. frantically, they call an ambulance. its too late though. i am already gone. when they take me down, the rope has dug into my neck and left rope burns where the rope was. its finally over. my life was like a terrible movie and i am now relieved that it is over.the pain is gone, and so am I. 

this post is similar to my other post titled, Bleed. it is a fictional suicide that i just made up. the only real part is when she told me she cant talk to me because her boyfriend would get mad. anyway, im not really dead. but i wish i was

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