heart attacks much?

I’ve been having little heart attacks and seizures lately, mostly if I laugh or cry. it freaking hurts my heart, and makes me unable to breathe, I literally have to hold my breath for about a minute so my heart won’t sting in pain. but it still hurts after I start to breathe again. I told my dad and he didn’t believe me, he just told me to go sleep. and my sister (my flesh and blood whom I adore so much, seriously I’m not kidding, I love her to death like a little kid loves his stuffed animal) is pissed at me for no reason. and I stopped cutting and burning because the scars and burns hurt a lot worse than before, I did it on my arm and leg, I can barely walk because i burned it so badly, even though it was just one little spot, I have to limp to get around, and I can’t stretch out my arm because I would yell from the pain because of the burns. I don’t know why it hurts like that, so don’t ask. oh my gosh it hurts to breathe so much, physically and mentally. ughhh.

well if you read this crap, then thanks, I am grateful, really.