I think it’s time to go now, it was nice knowing you guys. Take care, think of me when I’m gone.
August 2011
all my life has been screwed up when i was abused and given up by my parents so since i was 5 ive been on my own last year i met the most amazing girl ever i fell in love with her and i proposed… a month later she killed her self… i miss her so much i just want the pain to stop i have nothing so im going to end it all ive lost any and all reason to live for…she was so beautiful… the most amazing blue eyes and hair darker then a night without the moon she was so kind to […]
Hi, I’m 19 and Mmy life has been a mess. It’s funny how much you can change your outside, change your appearance, change your confidence, but still see the world in the same dark light.. still hate your insides. I never knew what was wrong with me. It wasn’t insecurity; feeling beautiful and having others feel it too wasn’t a problem. I was charismatic, friendly, energetic. That’s the part of myself I’d show you. But on the inside, I was suffocating, choking beneath all the pressure. My dad wants to be my best friend. My mom wants me to be close with her. Except both […]
I don’t even know where to begin. I have been told by both of my parents that I am a worthless piece of shit. I know that everyone says that the other sibling gets treated better than they do, but my parents take it to the extreme. I don’t feel loved by them. Honestly the way they treat me, I question why they had me in the first place.
Love life…ya, well not so hot. I lost my first love, and never really ever got over it. I miss him with every inch of my body. Just found out he is engaged. Wow. Then when I […]
Im 18 years old and havnt really spoken much about why I want to kill myself. tried everything this year, change of lifestyle, medication, counseling. didnt do shit all if anything ive gotten worse. Even got a gf but she treats me like shit really fucked up relationship, really fucked up life. was mormon when i was younger, dont believe in that bullshit anymore, parents took it bad. got kicked out of home for a while. back now but its hell. dropped outa uni, was gonna join the army but they wont take me cause im mentally “unstable” not my fault i was born in a […]
I don’t know how many times i’ve said i’m leaving, too many times though, that’s for sure. this time i’m leaving though. i feel dead inside, empty and hollow. i don’t mean to sound like an emo but y’know. i’m quite excited about this, and the thought of it maybe making it into the news, my old friends that left me might hear it, it excites me. i feel like a dick though, for leaving my loved ones, i hope they understand though.
my suicide letter’s done, 2 pages + a personal note to mum and some of my belongings in my drawer, a heart she […]
Hi
I am 18 years old, I am an intern at an accounting firm, and I generally hate my life…
I guess it’s not [articularly bad, but it’s not particularly good either… It’s as if all I’m doing is just existing, just being, not having any purpose… I hate my job, and I keep messing up at it. I hate my life because I feel I’ll never get where I want to be. Whenever I try to tell someone about this, they just tell me that my problems aren’t that bad… I realise as much, but I still feel like shit. I just want release. I […]
I know this will work.tomorrow I will take a bottle of tylenol.I’m 5’9,93 pounds,15.positive no doubt Thanks everyone for the help but help won’t ever be enough.I’ll pray that I don’t chicken out.Ugh this sucks.My note:
I love you all as God’s creatures but anything more would be a lie.I stopped lying months ago.It’s been this way for along time.It won’t change.I’m sleepless.I’m leaving nameless.I don’t want anyone holding the guilt for me dying after all it’s all my fault.Im suppose to help me not you.I’m suppose to be alone.I’m comfortable when I’m sad,It’s normal for me.Well I got to catch the bus!Later Days.
I’ll […]
i feel worthless a lot, i feel fat and ugly and weird. i also feel like everyone around me doesn’t actually like me so when today everything went wrong i just went for my second attempt. the first time i tried to kill myself i did it because i feel the world would be better without me, when my dad found out what i had done he said “grow up, and get out” but thats exactly what i was trying to do. I was being mature in my actions by attempting suicide in order to make my family and people who are close to […]
Me and my friend are very depressed. I have finally come out and told my doctor so I am getting help. But not my friend, her parents won’t accept the facts. So we have come up with a plan to runaway. I’m not gonna tell you cause if I do go through with it, then police will find this and know where I’m heading. My only way out of this world is listening to Hollywood Undead, they’re music is my life. If your gonna search them, then look up the song “Bullet” , “The Loss” , “Knife Called Lust” , “Hear Me Now” , “The […]
When wonderful, beautiful, amazing people don’t know what they’re worth, it makes me want to cry. It makes me want to reach out, and scream, “I SEE YOU. I see you, dammit! Can’t you see that I see you?!â€
I remember being in that dark place. I was worthless, and I couldn’t never be good enough for someone to really love me… I was a monster. No one loves a monster right?
Wrong. To ALL of you “monstersâ€, rejects, outcasts, odd balls, losers, and worthless pieces of shit, I see you, and I love you.
I remember wanting to die. That’s why I’m here. That’s why […]
Out of sight, out of mind
Swept beneath
Laid to rest
Out of sight, out of mind
It will not hold
It cannot be contained
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Let the waves carry you
Let it flow
Let yourself be taken.
Swim against it
Keep moving forward
Push it all away.
Some waves lift you up
Others will pummel you down.
You choose your direction
Should you stop, all is undone.
You will lose energy
You will lose air
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Get up
Keep going
Falling […]
I am Doris used every single spell worker on the internet, spent untold amounts of money and discovered they are all fakes…i was the fool though; doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. In the end, I decided that I wanted a tarot reading to know what my future held for me; I contacted a woman who lives locally to me and she told me about a man named (priests meruja); he does not advertise on the internet, has another job for income, has no set prices, makes no false promises and refuses to help anyone that cannot be helped […]
i dont want to be here anymore. im done with everything that comes around the corner. I can’t stand my family more than the next person. I feel so depress and empty. I dont belong in this world much longer. I want to go grab my extension cord and go hang myself outside. Why do i even try? I ask my friend for help and i havent heard a replied over two weeks. Im just done i dont want anyones help anymore. I will just let them wait for me to be dead. They dont need me anymore im just their fucking slavey that has […]
I just can’t live anymore. I got caught so I can’t overdose. I need ideas. I’m not asking for your ideas because technically you would be helping me kill myself.
I just need to die, Or have someone to talk to. I’ve lost all my close friends and my life has been really bad.
I see so many people want to die want to give up i feel that every second but i dont know how to help except for be here to talk to and everything and tell everyone i know exactly how u feel and please e-mail me i wanna talk even if its just to say hi im here please i cant keep up with everyone…mkafan12@yahoo.com
things are getting serious think im gonna do it sooner than i thought, i just wanna fucking leave…last week i went to counseling he a old man and he tried to kiss me…i believed him. all are letting down me including god, i just fucking hate this whole universe, i ve been seeing suicidal dreams i feel like i wanna stab my heart…every time it beats i hate that son of a ***** im gonna kill him
In reading old notes and can’t remember the dream bout Nycolle but I wrote it in my notes of my iPhone… Idk when I did that but why don’t I remember, choking???
It started out with me staring at a picture of Nycolle. My brother was doing an excellent job of photoshopping it and taking everyone out of the picture except her. I stopped for a moment and ended up at a hotel, the same one I talked to Nycolle in once. I walk to this secretary of mines office and check the place out and leave. I end up back home looking at the […]