I actually thought i was going to kill myself a few weeks to a month ago, but my friend somehow stopped me. School is but a few days away, and for me that means horrible grades(because im so stupid and cant understand a damn thing im taught in school), horrible grades will get my parents to yell at me which, in turn, will bring suicidal thoughts like no other. Also, ill be attending the same school as Her, the person whom i shall love with all my heart forever. And just the sight of her, just the sound of her voice can bring me to suicide. My friend isnt talking to me for whatever reason, so that means she wont be able to stop me from killling myself. I believe that i WILL kill myself during the school year. Who will miss me? Nobody. I hope to be suspended above the ground by a rope around my neck within a few months or so. Maby earlier. Hopefully earlier.
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Please just hold one…I’ve been there, I’ve felt the way you describe. Please just don’t let go…
Please, send me an email. I’d like to talk to you. It’s not too late, it’s never too late. Things will change.
Jessica-castle@hotmail.com
If you don’t send an email, just please, hold on. You might not see it, but you have so much potential and value in this world.
Theres no point in holding on, its far too late, and things will never change. I dont think i have any value at all, no one really cares about me anyways
Yeesh it sounds so much like me in high school. I can’t say suicidal thoughts are something I got over but I can say that the quicker you realize HS is BS the better off you’ll be. The goal is to try to graduate.
Whether you hold on to life or not, we all die anyway, so why postpone the future? And I love your positivity on death. Very enlightening. I don’t mean to offend you in anyway, though. So sorry if I am being rude.