ihave nothin 2 say but jzt endin it now icant take this pain anymore..so iguss this is bye she iz seriouz she hav givin me 2many chancez n ijzt fuk it up..icant force some1 to be with me 4evr
September 2011
Although it is over doesnt it seem great. Tummy ache for three days straight. A Split headache and ignoring everyone cause for the past two depress i felt like shet and more depress than every. Fml. Fuck my health. And Fuck about living. Im done….
there’s giggle within, but i ignore then cause i know deep inside the pain is much stronger and if i feed into my happiness it will make the fall so much harder when i crash.
Did my innocence ever exist? Who knows, and nobody cares. I’ve been fucked up for so long. It mattered once,
When I was a teenager, prople worried
Wondered why I was constantly bleeding.
But my mom just saw the most recent marks of self-hate I’ve made. And she didn’t care. She pointed and said, “stop it.” Okay, sure, I’ll get right on that. If nobody else cares, if nobody else is worried, why should I be?
I’ve been keeping a great weight losing regimen of not eating, excersicing, then puking myself thin.
It doesn’t matter, my heart’s still beating. Idon’t need love, I hate […]
I want to die, but I won’t. I’ve been crying all day. I want help but I don’t. I think I should go to hospital but I’m not severe because I don’t have a plan.
we were walking down the street when all of a sudden this guys head splatters on the ground next to us. dead.
Hello. I am new. I lost my cousin Richard J.Garber II on May 2, 2011 due to suicide. He played a huge role in my life. He was more like my brother. He left us all behind to pick up the pieces. Pieces which we will never ever fully get back. Our family is completely ripped apart. It was crappy before but now its worse. Some lost their jobs. Others who were close now are no longer speaking. Everyone is blaming everyone. I suppose that is how is […]
It’s strange that the only place I feel safe letting out this side of me is to strangers on the internet…
And now I have to go back to pretending
If I could just have my music and the type of books I read.
I’d be the happiest person on the planet.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QW4x4gswm-o
“Tsubasa wo Kudasai” (Please Give Me Wings)
Lyrics translation:
“If I could have my wish come true right now
I’d want to have wings
Please place wings on this back
like a bird
I want to spread my wings
and fly in these heavens
To the free sky with no sadness
I want to flutter my wings and fly
Even now, I don’t need money nor fame,
what I want are wings!
The things I dreamt as a child,
I still dream about them today!
I wan’t to spread my wings
and fly into this wide sky!
I want to flap my wings and fly to this
free sky filled […]
Hey everyone, to anyone who has made up their mind or is considering to end it all tonight…
How about waiting just one more night? I know it may seem like you can’t stand even another SECOND of being alive and you just want to escape this life this instant. But adding one more night to the life that you’ve lived won’t hurt you. Just close your eyes, think about everything that you will miss, and go to bed one more time. Maybe your head will clear up in the morning and you will change your mind. Maybe not. But it’s worth trying, and what’s one […]
When will things just stop! Why are you playing this sick game with my life; constantly being bullied where ever I go and the people that should have my back turn on me to enjoy this twisted entertainment. The feeling as if the only place I feel safe from my suicidal thoughts is to isolate myself. Bullies you have taken the friends that I have always tried to make, the family that will always see me as second rate no matter whatever I accomplish, and a part of me; the part that is saying don’t let them get the best of you, but you have. […]
Pretty self explanatory… but I have no one to contact to help me when I am feeling this way. I don’t want to worry my parents, I’m an adult now… I know they’d rather worry about me alive rather than mourn my death, but it’s hard to reach out to them. I feel as though they wouldn’t understand. I can’t talk to my sister because this is the month her best friend killed himself.. the date just recently passed and I am afraid of triggering her, she is not well mentally herself. And my best friend.. love interest.. well his brother killed himself. So I […]
I wish I knew when I wouldn’t be able to fall asleep beforehand. That way I could just stay up all night and maybe accomplish something before I have to face the next day. Well, I probably wouldn’t accomplish anything, but I’m sure I could do more than lay in bed contemplating pointless thoughts. I just wish I could sleep.
we are ALL completely Insignificant in the great sceme and time frame, none of this matters. (except belly button lint)
My life is good I could never be happier Im happy with my gf she makes me happy and I make her happy. She is the reason for the smile on my face. I want to stay with her forever. But people say love dont last forever and I do believe it can but people alwayz hating on our relationship :/
Sometimes you don’t quite understand why is life taking you into such a dark place? Sometimes we don’t understand why all these bad things keeps on happening to us! Sometimes we don’t feel complete in the inside. Its like there’s emptiness and loneliness that each and everyone of us have. We have tried anything to fill the voids. At the end of the day you’re just hopeless, you don’t know where to go or even what to do with it. So we start cutting our self, inflict our self with such a pain. A pain the we thought was such better idea than the pain […]
I don’t know.
I don’t know about anything anymore.
I am so confused.
About everything.
I’m to good a procrastination , these excuses, i just want to die already.
I know I’m gonna end it soon, just not sure what day… before all this trouble I was in I was living a good life. I was happy then 1 night being drunk and stupid I lost it, and end up in jail with 4 assualt charges…. 8 charges total. so I feel I pretty much ruined my life. cuz after trial il be going to jail for 2years. fuck that. ‘ my family is worried about me bcuz they know I’m suicidal, and since I stabbed my self 6 times in the neck 3 years ago. I should have fucking died that time, but […]