All this time I’ve been keeping myself alive for a person who treats me like shit an knows it and bloody fucking knows how it makes me feel. I give endless amounts of apologies for things I’m not even doing wrong. I kept myself alive for an invalid reason, IM NOT EVEN DOING IT FOR MYSELF! I’m not selfish, I’m postponing my suicide sometime away from anyone of my familys birthdays or holidays. After christmas, I’m fucking gone baby, free from this hell 🙂
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You’re not selfish, or stupid, no…
And that’s not a valid reason, to live just for the sake of someone else, while that someone does not treat you well.
But might I ask:
Why not live for yourself?
Because I’m unhappy regardless of what I do, I’ve tried almost everything.
Well, if you’ve tried ALMOST everything…why not make a grand sweep of it?
Try everything–after all, you’re almost there, if you’ve almost done it all, and you won’t get a chance once you’re dead…
If you’re near the end of your meal anyway–what’s a little extra dessert, just for you? 😉
What’s something you’ve always WANTED to do?
Why not do that?
Who cares if it seems silly, or if it doesn’t seem plausible, or might fail…after all, what have you got to lose, if you try that, and then, if you’re still convinced nothing is left…
At least you’ll have fully cleared your plate, so to speak?
Though I am happy now, because I’m close to my end thank god.
Well, if you die, your suffering doesn’t end…it just stops.
You don’t need to end your life to end your suffering.
What is it that troubles you?
(I’m not pretending a midnight conversation with some stranger over the Internet is going to reveal some hidden purpose as to why you ought to live, but, still, if you are so close to death…what’s to lose by talking about it?)
I’m unstable. I have Borderline personality disorder, severe depression, insomnia, and I don’t want to live like this. I have no reason to, I’ve been harassed and beaten my whole life. I don’t see a future for me and I don’t want one to be honest.