I have thrown so many signs out for years now that i want to committ suicide and the people around me are so self consumed that they dont realize how badly i am hurting inside. I just want someone to recognize a sign anything and just say that i care in person not someone from the internet. my family and friends are so selfish. i hate this and i hate my life. my parents are too concerned about their divorce and my friends are too busy with their boyfriends.. where the fuck does that leave me? stupid idiot cunts!
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Please… stacey try to understand that people are not mind readers, and people aren’t good at interpreting signs. Don’t think they are stupid or selfish because of those things – people just don’t respond well to passive-aggressive behaviour. I’m sure some people think the same of you because chances are you’ve misinterpretted a sign along the way.
Try talking openly and honestly to them. If they don’t understand, talk to a councillor. Either way, to get what you want, you have to be direct.
people dont like stuff that interfere with their perfect world. #i use that term loosely but u being suicidal is against the norm nd against their world so their brain subconciously egnores the signs in order to keep a rash mind. its not their faullt, they arnt being selfish they just dont know better. sit ur friend down, or whoever u trust the most nd tell them. after that they will want to help
Stacy I am in the same place. I just told my sister I want to die and she said “Well if you’re serious then I will take you to the hospital. Let me know.” That was over email. I told her then that i was fine because the last fucking place I want to go is the hospital. she couldn’t give a rat’s ass. She didn’t offer to call or talk or anything. She’s a **** too. She’s jacked up on ativan. So I shouldn’t expect much. I never reach out like that to family. But I did try. I’d rather die than go to the hospital. And that’s probably what I am going to do. I read in a coroner’s book about a sure fire way to end your life and I am going to employ it tonight. I wish I could give you a hug Stacy.
uttilini:
you got it right on the money. i dont want to be sent to hospitals. ive been to many of those and they treat you like you are crazy when we rnt crazy… we are just hurt, lonely, and suffering and just want someone to vent and talk to without them freaking out and sending you away,.
NO UTTILINI email me on the method please im : real foudy @ hotmail .com
no spaces nd y u want to go?
*real-foudy
Procel why do you want to know the method?
Trick question? i would like to know the method or name of the book so that when everythings in its propper place i can use it
Dead Men Do Tell Tales: The Strange and Fascinating Cases of a Forensic Anthropologist by William R. Maples
Oh shit even though my sister is useless to me I can’t do this to her. I will have to wait a couple of days.
thank u man i appreciate it. why u want to go nd why now?
@utillini good on you. BTW telling someone ‘I want to die’ never gets the result you want… I’ve tried that… people don’t know how to react. You have to ask for help… ‘can we talk… I want to die and I need help’ that kind of thing, you know?
Okay what I said was
“I am slowly going insane since mom left.
All I want to do is die.”
well now thats farely serious, ud imagine that would get atleast a phonecall or a visit now
@utillini… but you still didn’t ASK for help. I know people seem very stupid for not GETTING it, but they really need to be told point blank… “I NEED HELP. CAN YOU HELP ME?’. If you’re that direct, and you still don’t get result,s you’re barking up the wrong tree and need to look for someone else to help you.
I’m sorry about you’re mom. When did that happen?
If I said I needed help she’d call the police. I’d rather die than go to the hospital. I knew you are trying to help but it is very complicated and I don’t have the capacity to explain it all here. If you knew the whole story you’d probably agree with me on doing the best I could concerning my family. I told her earlier in the day that I wish she’d just call me once in a while.
She died on Sept 14 of 2010
@utillini I can understand that. Hospital sounds horrible. Maybe you just can’t talk to your sister… I guess you have to find someone else. I’m sorry, I’m sure you’re doing the best you can, I also know it’s probably too much for one person to handle alone. I hope you find someone you feel somfortable to talk to.
sept 2010 was a long time to be carrying this on your own. Did you talk to a grief councillor?
Stacy & Uttilini, (since you dont like me calling you *Utts*) 🙁
One day makes sense but the bottom line is, you cant ask OR expect help from people who dont have their own lives in order or simply don’t have the resources/training to help…
Human issues are complex issues.
It’s like asking a plumber to fly or fix a plane. They don’t have the skills or resources to do so. You would be disappointed, but crazy to expect anything useful in the first place.
Make Sense? Don’t blame your sister, im sure she may have her own ‘coping issues’.
Likewise don’t blame your family.
If either of you are brave enough or want to chat, feel free. Chatting never killed anyone.
@adastra that depends on what they chatted about… Of course u can ask other to help it doent take a phsychologist to listen nd very often its that one friend that sympathises and show they care that talks someone down not the shrink that listens cause they paid to
Adastra the situation with my sister is very complex. Something I could not take the time or energy to explain here. I wasn’t really expecting much from her. Trust me on that. I am not someone who likes to be told what to do. Not at all. I understand your sentiment Adastra but when someone says to me something like “Don’t blame your family” without knowing the whole entire situation and without knowing whether or not I really am blaming them or not I don’t take it very well. It’s too simplistic. Trust me these little box quotes do not allow for the entire situation to unfold or be explained. What you need to know about me is that I am a very forgiving, understanding and kind person. The people I have actually talked to about this situation tell me to just get away from my family. That they are poison. And I am talking to professionals too. So I believe wholeheartedly that if you were able to hear me speak you’d see a whole different person than you do in these little charcoal gray boxes. They are so limiting.
I know Stacey you just need a friend sometimes not a whole freaking hospital.
omg. i know what you mean. these little boxes dont even begin to hold enough space to really explain in thorough detail what is going on in any of our lives and it sucks utterly and complete ass
YOu know Stacy that got me thinking. Is there a skype group or something like that where people could actually talk in a group like this? I think that would be so cool.
i agree that sounds like a really good idea!!
if your family is a no go don’t waste time trying to talk to them. if it doesn’t work out it will only leave you feeling more hopeless than before. What you need is a friend that cares enough to help you through this, which as im sure we all know, is very difficult to find. In the mean time I would try to find little things to help you. Small things to get it out of your thoughts at least for a little while. Keep yourself busy with familiar things so that when you know its too much and you can deal with it andn you’ll collapse if you try now than you have something to numb your brain and redirect your thoughts. Once you feel like you can have a good cry over anything and everything. i always feel better the next morning after ive gotten it all out. Talkng about it over and over helps to, rewording it in as many different ways as you can in a journal, a phone call, or a word document. i understand family isn’t always an option for everybody and im in your shoes their, the trick is to not get caught up in feeling like with out friends and family you’re lost. It’s not hopeless and the people who deal with the problems we are all going through right now are the strongest mentally of anyone. We deal with more than anyone else in a single day. remember that and how strong you have to be to do this every damn day. hold on to that. Good luck.
if you find a skype group please let me know. that sounds like somethng we could all benefit from