I’m wishing every night
On that “magical” time of day
When the clock strikes11 past 11
I’m wishing for the pain to go away.
I’m wishing for Christmas this year
Not to go awry,
I’m thinking of all the world’s problems
I’m asking God why.
What did they do to be bullied
Or to be given cancer
Why all my desperate prayers
Never quite seem to get answered.
I’m thinking “Why me?”
Then instantly regretting it
Thinking of the other kids
With death and hunger setting in.
They have no food
And they must starve
And I, a selfish man,
Think that my life is hard?
But I cant help wishing
Wanting a perfect life
A life free of the pain
The heartache, the strife.
And all along
My most desperate wish
Is to have you by my side
To be only mine to kiss.
But I’m slowly realizing
It will never happen
I’m realizing just how strong
Is this thing that I’m trapped in.
To strong to break
Or let go
Unless you tell me straight up
That our love isn’t so.
And so for Christmas this year
I just want to know
Do you love me, please answer,
With just Yes Or No.