Well, im going to write here everyday. Just to get my thoughts out.. Just to know someone is reading and listening to my story, cause somehow I feel a bit better knowing at least someone knows my story..
Anyways, my mom and stepdad(who might as well be my dad.) divorced about 6 or 7 months ago and i listened to their wedding song.(lets stay together – Al Greene) im not going to lie it tore me apart. I miss having a stable family and i hated sharing my holidays with my dad and family without this seperation. i HATE going for weekends, and having to share my life. I dont want two houses, two addresses, two phone numbers. It fucking sucks..
Im making friendship bracelets, but i have no one to give them to since i have no true friends, and the true friends i do have live halfway across the world. Hows that work? Fuck me.
Also I got a package today, from some family a few hours away, i havent seen them in so long. I dont even remember last time I saw them.. Anyway back to thepoint.. I opened the package to see gifts for my birthday and christmas. I ended up bawling my eyes out because i cant see them. I hate love. I wish it never existed…
Until next time.
Xoxo
-Zoe
2 comments
I don’t think it’s love you hate, I think it’s the lack of love you feel. And I don’t blame you, it’s hard to have faith when life keeps giving you reasons to doubt.
-C.
“i have no true friends, and the true friends i do have live halfway across the world.”
So you DO have true friends. Don’t disregard them.