The days keep getting harder and less fruitful. The nights are getting longer. Waking in cold sweats wondering why the curse continues. It is time to take back the control. I always said I do what I want when I want, so why haven’t I done it yet? Time to face that fear. Time to move on in the only way possible. I am so tired. I am so very, very tired. I hear the arguments from both sides. I weigh the pros and cons of either result. But again I am so very tired. I can’t keep my eyes open any longer. When I finally defeat that fear they can’t use me anymore. They can’t abuse me anymore. There will be no more of me wondering what I can do for someone else to get them to pretend to care. What can I do to defeat that fear? I am running short on opportunity. She says I am damaged. By definition this means I am lowered in or lacking in value and usefulness. I am damaged.
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Don’t know what country you live in but the USA is might tough. Not a lot of support but a lot of damage. Hang in there. Take a warm bath if you can. Listen to soothing music. We all need more caring and we are not good at as human beings. We care more for dogs than one another cause they are simple. So you needing care is natural when you have been damaged. A serious wound needs serious care.
^ Damn True
PS control is a myth. how about aiming for influence. ‘always said I do what I want when I want, so why haven’t I done it yet?’ cause there is no always. there are competing wants.