I’m seriously considering suicide. I have a long weekend coming up, I might find an empty field or something, neutral territory. Maybe I’ll even get the boy I like to come with me, we both have the same idea. I’d just need to write a note… Im actually a little excited by the thought…
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NO!!!!! You shouldn’t try killing yourself. I remember knowing you from looooong ago, but I forgot your name. Idk if I added you somewhere before cause my memory stinks like shit… D: but you shouldn’t do so. I haven’t seen or talked to anyone here in forever. It’s weird how I came to see this post by someone I know when I just decided to check this out, but good thing I DID!
COINCIDENCE? FATE? I got no idea. But I hope you don’t go through with it.
If there’s something wrong, let me know. I’ll try to be there for you.
First off: I like the title, got to love the rain. Maybe I’ll ask the same.
What’s been pushing you even further off the edge lately? Or is the continuation of things you’ve already written about that you’re just tired of?
Hope SP or someone can help you to REALLY see if this is truly the right choice…There isn’t going back, so better be sure what possibilities are thrown out the window.
Have you and the boy you like not been able to get together and sort of be each other’s support??
Hope your note comes to you better than me – I’ve tried writing and all I see is how cold I am. Well anywho, not about me – have plans what you are going to write?
Do you get a sort of shiver but excited( or am I just weird? ).
Well whatever you choose to do, I hope it’s the right thing thing( REALLY HOPE ) and that you find happiness and peace either way. Of course I would hope life is the choice( being hypocritical ) but in the end your choice and yours alone.
Good luck…
Oh and after writing your note, I would really look over it. Read it, understand what you’re saying.
You don’t want to leave life with regrets and doubts or anything of the sort. A hint that maybe it really isn’t your time to go…
Anywho, again( as Deep said ) we’re hear if you need us.
@Deep it has been a while and I think we added each other on msn but I don’t use msn anymore 😐
@Willtickin 9/10 my titles are from songs this one is from a song called Gravedigger by Dave Matthews (Yes that’s right, I’m that kind of person :P) More of the same pushing me over, I have written a few Notes before but they always change as the things around me change…. When I make a final copy I will definitely share it with you. The boy I like kinda hates me because I’m very hypocrtical, I love hate everything and I come off as a person who’s very indescicive. And don’t worry about being hypocritical I find that’s it impossible to not be hypocrytical. And as for possibilities, I assure you I have not thrown any possibilities out the window, there aren’t any for me….. I’m not talented at anything or I can’t see it… Part of the problem is I think Incredibly lowly of myself. Ugh I really hate reading back on that it makes me cringe at how that sounds…. I should probably try talking to you guys first…. So you all know I have some rules about suicide that I have set in place for myself (just hear me out okay): 1. You have to be in your right mind, meaning when you make the decision I don’t are what you do after. 2. It has to be at a reasonable hour because if your thinking of killing yourself at 3AM chances are you are probably feeling depressed/like shit…. 3. Make sure it’s somewhere you can’t be saved, don’t want to be the girl interrupted.
I dunno I just use that as a general guideline. Holy shit can I ramble.
Sorry.
Ah, well I like Dave Matthews, thought haven’t heard TOO many of their songs. So, shweet thanks for the share(and I’ll listen while typing). Bah, ye it’s the continuing things that’ll get you over time(I should go reread some of your posts then).
Mhm, hard to find the RIGHT words that just fit…Alright, well I’ll be sure to keep an eye out and read it.
Bah, well I know what it’s like to have people annoyed with you for being hypocritical and/or indecisiveness. Can’t help it… Hope he can better understand and not being annoyed or hate you for it…
Are you sure? Maybe some more perspectives for yourself? I’m usually rather hard on myself, or so I’ve been told. I don’t think anyone has really given me a reason not to be, but I guess if they’re saying that it COULD be partially true…? So I’ll say that to you, just try not to beat yourself up so much – if possible.
As for talents, meh maybe you’re just being hard on yourself on what you think is good at or not? I can’t either think of a talent I’ve got, but well while planning suicide, doesn’t hurt to keep looking…And maybe we don’t need a talent, maybe just to work at something? I’m sure you got something going for you, or something you can achieve. Heh, you cringe when you reread your writings too?
As for your rules, I think they make perfect sense and I highly agree with them too. Close to mine, but better.
Meh, ramble all you please. As you can see I can ramble myself too…
No need to apologize(also been told not to do that too much, and again maybe they’re right)
@Will I honestly dont really have anything going for me, I’m too lazy 😛 All I do is ramble. Apologizing is also on my list as well. I think the only reason I care so much about being talented is that “my future” has come up a lot lately and that’s just the way I think, you have to be good at something if you want to do it. 😐 I however have no idea what I want to do with my life. I feel like existing is pretty good but simply existing wont give me a place to live 😛
Well, I hear ya about the laziness. Professional here. Rambling is awesome. But maybe I’m biased. Mmm yea, always taught that talent will get you somewhere blah blah blah. Well screw that. I guess we’re unlucky and actually have to work at something…But I don’t think you have to be “good” at something to do it, I think you just have to like/enjoy it a wee bit – you can work at the being good part – not everything can fall on our lap(I wish). So change that thinking :P, cliche: “You can do whatever you want as long as you put your mind to it”(or however it goes…) A lot of people have no idea at first…You in college or about to be? I’d experiment with taking classes and seeing what you like? Maybe rambling( plus the fact that you write perty darn nice ) may make you a good writer of sorts( professions in which you write ). Yes, sadly enough simply existing wont give you somewhere to live(again, I wish). Need some motivation of sorts? -shrug- I wouldn’t know since I’m not really doing anything myself either… 😛
@Will Email me? iamwhereasnailhastobe@ hotmail.com
Aye aye, be a pleasure.
Sent one, hopefully didn’t mess up the email address, ’cause well I wouldn’t be surprised if I did.
Ya, I don’t use msn anymore either. I did a complete wipeout of my laptop. 😀 if you need anything though, you can still email me or something.