Okay, So I’m 15 years old and my depression all started near the end of summer. It all started a few days after my girlfriend decided to take a break. Just for a week. I lasted about 2 days, Then I gave her a choice. Get back together or never be together again….She told me her friend said that she shouldn’t have to choose if I really loved her. Well She couldn’t have been anymore wrong. I went on with my normal day after that, Got high, ate, then chilled with some friends. After the high wore off I started feeling lonely. I then turned to my best friend. And told him I had to go. He just stared at me and nodded his head. I ran off crying my eyes out. I went to the ONE place that made me the happiest in the world. Near the river. I sat on the docks and cried I at least cried for a good 2 hours. But then I stopped crying. I felt kind of happy. Then I met this girl. She’s 13. But she was a BIG part of my depression. She made me happy. But then again she made me sad. That I could never date her. Or at least be with her. Then my Ex started saying a bunch of stuff about me…That made me feel even worst about myself. I told her how I felt. And she told me that she still loved me. But she moved a few days later to her farther’s. So now I’m dating this girl…She’s a wonderful girl. But I’ve heard a few things from a close friend. And he told that she was saying she was going to break up with me. I’m so depressed right now. I don’t think anything that anyone could do could turn me out of this. I don’t know what to do anymore. I think about murder and suicide. Murdering who? I don’t know that question. But I know I want to do it to someone that broke my heart. I hope someone helps me. I can’t go on living this way anymore…
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Well, I think that the first thing you have to do is talk with that girl, never trust in words of other people. Talk with her.
And, about your Ex, well, I understand how you felt, but I think that we never can turn back the past, so there’s nothing you could do to change the past. And it’s good.
And, I have hope in that always there are a person that can took the pieces of your heart and replace the old pains with love.
Happiness don’t exist. There’s any people happy. Happiness is enjoy little moments of peace. Just don’t think, live.
Sorry for mi poor english.
And if you want to talk with someone, here I am.
Take care of you.
You made your point very clear. And thank you for saying all that. It really gives me hope that i have some people that care
All that I said is the truth, so don’t thank me:) If my words -feelings- can help you is enough to make me feel okay.
You know, here I am.
Kiss.
Yeah, no. You shouldn’t be dating at all my dear friend, your not emotionally stable duders. You can’t cry just because you think she might break up with you, it will make her want to trust me. You shouldn’t be thinking about murdering, or hurting anyone in any way. I’m not telling you how to live or love or how not to live or love. I’m just trying to tell you not to do what i did, which was; doubt my girls love, so i lost it.
Well i think im taking after you Nuclear. She just broke up with me. And I know i’m not emotional stable for a relationship. But this was….Well this was just to see if i could love again.