I’m a 15 year old girl. I have major depression, dysthymia, cyclothymia, and mildly bipolar. My family and i dont get along at all. I dont really have any friends at school, and i suck at school. I have been self harming myself for five years, and it has become an addiction to me. iv been put in a hospital before, and im scared that its going to happen again. iv attempted suicde before, and sometimes it still crosses my mind. i dont feel that if i were to commit suicide, anyone would care. i feel lifeless all the time. i just want to feel what its like to be happy without a voice in my head telling me that being happy isnt rite, and telling me that i dont deserve to be happy. i just want somebody that actually knows how i feel, but out of all the people that i know, nobody knows… or nobody wants to listen.