Trying..to be happy for the sake of my friends. I know I burden them and all of you with my constant sadness. I try..and sometimes when I type the faces, they arent real. Theyre cover ups. I’m crying right now…i started crying inadvertantly. Not sobbing or moaning..just crying. Tears stream down my cheeks and plop onto my keyboard..because of the pain i feel inside..so much pain that its starting to bleed through to the outside…it hurts. This isnt just any breakup..this is THE breakup..the breakup that will break me..is breaking me. And the fact that im sitting here crying silently with tears tumbling out of my eyes as if they have minds of their own, is proof that i wont be here much longer…i tried…i swear. I’m sorry Skye, Cody, Mom, Kenny, Kai, Sonja, Jorge…i couldnt stay where you left me. See you soon.
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They burden you with their problems, I think it is only fair that they at least listen and attempt to help you. You aren’t a burden, you’re a person who deserves friends who realize you’re sad and want to help…
🙁 A good cry can help, but please don’t let it all take you over… Anything us SP’ers can help with the pain? I truly think you can pull through this breakup, you’re strong and we’re here to support you.
Don’t let those tears tell you what’s what. I implore you keep trying and not give up… You deserve happiness. Live on for those people at least…
Please.
Heh I know what type of crying you are talking about, I was driving home the other day and all of a sudden the tears just started rolling out without any other symptoms of crying, no change in my breathing or anything, just tears that started running down my face. I’m going through one of my worst breakups ever too. My ex really really broke me. Doing my best to keep going though, you can too. You’re not alone, I know how much this sucks.
I’m sorry you had a rough day… Being happy for your friends can make things difficult. Sometimes you gotta keep it real. I hope Wednesday was a better day for you… There will be tough days… Don’t let them stop you from moving forward. I know that you’ll find happiness for yourself… and that’s important.