Trying..to be happy for the sake of my friends. I know I burden them and all of you with my constant sadness. I try..and sometimes when I type the faces, they arent real. Theyre cover ups. I’m crying right now…i started crying inadvertantly. Not sobbing or moaning..just crying. Tears stream down my cheeks and plop onto my keyboard..because of the pain i feel inside..so much pain that its starting to bleed through to the outside…it hurts. This isnt just any breakup..this is THE breakup..the breakup that will break me..is breaking me. And the fact that im sitting here crying silently with tears tumbling out of my eyes as if they have minds of their own, is proof that i wont be here much longer…i tried…i swear. I’m sorry Skye, Cody, Mom, Kenny, Kai, Sonja, Jorge…i couldnt stay where you left me. See you soon.