i wanna become an actor/ err maybe an astronaut/ psychologist….eventually when i get better
I have ADD, severe social anxiety issues, i’m scared of people I’m a high school dipout due to loosing friends/paranoia (i have one close friend)from depression due to selective mutism, Im paranoid, some OCD,Â I’ve had a past some mild sexual abuse…I’m a loner, use to be suicidal, use to think of it everyday but now im better.(i’ve attempted it),I might have avdp, and maybe social ptsd I can be really sensitive but I always bounce back. I’m a mad genius, usually a step or two ahead. I am kind of random, I love to sing and play keyboardÂ by ear, video games, swimming, rock climbing, being outdoors, star gazing. wrestling my brother(I’m a vegetarian, but not afraid to sneak in some meatÂ animals (but bugs freak me out) , scary movies, making moviesÂ I’m a good writer, ( I suck at reading though ? and I fancy myself an artist. I have acute hearing, a night owl,’m sneaky I could be a spy. I’m very mysterious, scared to express myself, I think too much. (get lost in my thoughts)I suck at sports, could live without them. I am super clumsy. Kind of insane.(I dont understand myself) I’m a good looking girl (could be a model i’ve been told many times)but im super lonely and lost and confused. Idont do drugs/ I dont like alcohol, i think its stupid.Â FEAR IS THE ONLY THING I’ve ever known, Things would be so much easier If i didnt care, and was straightup to be myself. IM A SCREW UP, loser, every day i wish to restart my life but then again i dont wann change anything.
No one unerstands me, not even myself. Im scared to open up and explain to people.Oh and I love to laugh. (weird sense of humor).I know i seem bipolar,,, im fcked, im making it sound better than i actually have it..so much more but you get the jest i guess….I’m so ashamed with my issues, I coverthem up but its not easy, im afraid to die, een more afraid to live HOW CAN I NOT GIVE A SHT ?