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27 and hopeless

by badfish 8/2/2013

written by badfish

I am a 27 year old man.Â I am writing this because I don’t know what else to do. I am sorry if this is extremely long but I feel as though I just have to get this out of me.Â I will understand ifÂ no one were to read this.

I often feel hopeless about everything in my life.Â As a child I grew up in a small town North of a major city.Â I had friends, played lots of sports but often felt like an outcast for no reason in particular.Â I would often become very angry if anyone rubbed me the wrong way.Â […]

8/2/2013 11 comments

At a loss of words

by sunflower 8/1/2013

written by sunflower

i dont know what to think. i really dont know what to say. i just am completely shocked. i thought i was going crazy. i dont know why im sobbing right now. i just thought maybe one of us got out of it ok. maybe im the reason for it. i dont know how fine you were when we werent together but now that we have been better you feel the need to come back on here. i dont want to be the reason for anyones suffering. i dont want you to follow the path of drugs, alcohol, self harm, suicide, mental hospitals. i want […]

8/1/2013 9 comments

I’m trying

by sleeplessinSTL 7/30/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

As of right now, I’m at the bottom of the pit. If you look at my charts, I should be doing okay. But I feel so utterly depressed. I haven’t smoked weed or cigarettes in a month, and I’m not abusing my medicine. I’m also seeing a therapist and have hung out with my friends more often. Well, my clean friends that is.

Of course there’s a dark side though. I started drinking again. It’s not a lot, but I know it’s not good for me. Honestly though, if I don’t have a piece of the old me, I fear I’ll go insane. The thing is, […]

7/30/2013 10 comments

Alone.

by Jayykeith3312 6/18/2013

written by Jayykeith3312

I can’t keep fromÂ dwellingÂ on the fact that I set myself up to be alone. I’m used to people not being there for me, but normally there’s those few people that are always there. Â This time even they have drifted away. It seems like over night I slipped back into my old skin of sadness andÂ loneliness. I thought that I had learned to be happy again. She opened up a whole new world of beauty to me. Was it a new world so sweet or was I just blinded by her sweetness? I’m so confused and numb. I’m remembering what it feels like to be alone. […]

6/18/2013 2 comments

It Is Amazing…

by Katherine 4/18/2013

written by Katherine

How worthless someone can you make you feel. How you confess your undying love for them and they take advantage of that. How can someone do that? Someone you thought could never ever ever hurt you. Truth is, life is full of ups and downs, with dissapointments, the only thing that matters is how exactly you take that infromation and apply it to your everyday life.

I have been with my boyfriend for a year now (someone who I should not be with due to a bad influence: Weed, drugs, alcohol), recently he had gotten into an accident (DWI)Â I told him I loved him as soon […]

4/18/2013 3 comments

I think my meds are junk…

by nemo 12/9/2012

written by nemo

I woke up today and wished again that my attempt had not failed. The meds make me feel fuzzy, at times they make me shake, people looks at me and despise me because they think I am on drugs or alcohol. I am tired, but jittery all the time. I hate the meds, I want my life back the way it used to be or I want out. This frustration is unendurable.

12/9/2012 3 comments

I want to talk about myself for awhile.

by airq12 11/24/2012

written by airq12

Hi. My name’s Erynn. I’m new to this website, and wanted to introduce myself. I thought the easiest way to do this, was to make a small list of facts.

1) I don’t have my drivers license yet.

2) I go to therapy.

3) I hate myself; there’s nothing about me that I like. Nothing.

4) I have no friends.

5) My parents are frustrated. They love me, but don’t know what to do with their daughter. Mom ignores me, and Dad just gives one-word answers.

6) I started being depressed in the 4th grade.

7) Going out in public makes me utterly sick. I feel like everyone’s eyes are on me. […]

11/24/2012 12 comments

You think life is shit??????

by chud 11/16/2012

written by chud

I’ve been reading through a lot of posts over the last few days and I have too say get a grip Some of you. I’m 34 years old and reading some of the comments on here you really don’t have a clue. I’ve been there as a 14 year old and the girl that I love so much has split up with me so I slit my wrists. At 15 I got started on by 7 people my own age and all I could do was run away as fast as I could or literally get kicked to death. I was so ashamed to run […]

11/16/2012 1 comment

Sweet, sweet alcohol. I love you

by jamesmohio 5/21/2012

written by jamesmohio

I was so depressed last night. Poor me, poor you. Poor fool who thinks your life sucks. Shit, I’m sick of pity. I’m buzzed. I drank a cup of Jack, now I feel good. I can’t help but wonder how long this will last. 10 more shots and I’ll want to die. I have an extra big bottle tonight. Manipulation has always done me so much good. I know my habits, drink and feel good, drink more feel okay, drink too much want to die. I have too much alcohol in the fridge. Way too much alcohol for one man to handle. Blah blah blah. […]

5/21/2012 10 comments

Is there anyone like me?

by idunno 3/15/2012

written by idunno

i wanna become an actor/ err maybe an astronaut/ psychologist….eventually when i get better

I have ADD, severe social anxiety issues, i’m scared of people I’m a high school dipout due to loosing friends/paranoia (i have one close friend)from depression due to selective mutism, Im paranoid, some OCD,Â I’ve had a past some mild sexual abuse…I’m a loner, use to be suicidal, use to think of it everyday but now im better.(i’ve attempted it),I might have avdp, and maybe social ptsd I can be really sensitive but I always bounce back. I’m a mad genius, usually a step or two ahead. I am kind of random, […]

3/15/2012 2 comments

I just want to die

by missuray 2/10/2012

written by missuray

My life is Shit. It always has been. Its been one thing after the other. I’m done. I just want to know how to hang my self passively without alot of Pain. I have some drugs and alcohol I can take to give me the courage. I just dont know how to do it from a door knob or something. What would be the easiest and quickest way. I dont want to fuck it up.

2/10/2012 4 comments

Drugs. Death.

by U.N. Owen 1/16/2012

written by U.N. Owen

When people use alcohol, marijuana, heroin, cocaine, (lean/sizzurp/codeine/etc), meth, and prescriptions to cope they are put in rehab centers or jail to stop their actions.Â (Yes the obvious is that most of those are illegal).Â They are told they should be sober and rational to decide how to live their lives.

Yet if one has soberly and rationally decided to end one’s life because one is tired of going through things, then one is told that they have a ‘mental issue’ and need a bevy of prescribed drugs to set them right.Â Many no safer on the body in the long term than illegal drugs and […]

1/16/2012 16 comments

Jan 3 or 4

by vthrohrt 12/31/2011

written by vthrohrt

I’m a 22 year old engaged mother of one. My family takes care of my son and I entirely. I own a home, a car, I have food in the fridge and the lights are on.

I have failed at everything I’ve ever tried. I only graduated HS because my dad put me in a lock down boarding school where I didnt have a choice other than to graduate. I recently got kicked out of a school I’d been working 3 years to get into due to my anxiety/having to take medication for said anxiety.

I cant keep my house clean, I cant keep my kid happy, […]

12/31/2011 8 comments

Release

by CJ 6/22/2009

written by CJ

Finally, oblivious parents have recognized my bulimic ways and decided to get me help. I’m going to a doctor tomorrow and I’m actually eating full meals. I feel…. pretty good. I thought all hell was going to break loose if they found out, but they were more understanding than I thought they would be. My brother knows, and he choose to just ignore me instead of supporting, but he can go fuck himself for all I care.

My bulimia was the cause of all my strife. I’ve felt happier in the past two days than I have in a long time. Though it will take me […]

6/22/2009 3 comments