Hi everyone. I don’t know why I’m writing this. Maybe I just need to get this shit off my chest. I’ve been kicked out of college, my only option now is to get a job or be thrown out.
I have extremely bad problems with my confidence, and so getting a job is out of the question. I’m going to take the easy way out and commit suicide. I live in the UK and have Â£60 from my google adsense, I’m just praying this is going to be enough for some helium, or whatever else I could use to painlessly kill myself.
I feel so mean doing this, I’m sure my parents are going to be devastated, but shit happens right? I have no friends, no job, no money, and no means of getting anywhere in life as I have no qualifications. So I just hope they will understand.
I don’t know when I’m going to do the deed. Soon hopefully, I don’t want to leave it too long because it’ll only get harder. I’m looking forward to it. I’ve recently tried lucid dreaming, but it didn’t work out. Maybe when I’m permanently asleep I’ll have note practice, heh.
Like I said, I don’t know why I’m writing this, but thank you, thank you so much for reading this.