Hi everyone. I don’t know why I’m writing this. Maybe I just need to get this shit off my chest. I’ve been kicked out of college, my only option now is to get a job or be thrown out.
I have extremely bad problems with my confidence, and so getting a job is out of the question. I’m going to take the easy way out and commit suicide. I live in the UK and have £60 from my google adsense, I’m just praying this is going to be enough for some helium, or whatever else I could use to painlessly kill myself.
I feel so mean doing this, I’m sure my parents are going to be devastated, but shit happens right? I have no friends, no job, no money, and no means of getting anywhere in life as I have no qualifications. So I just hope they will understand.
I don’t know when I’m going to do the deed. Soon hopefully, I don’t want to leave it too long because it’ll only get harder. I’m looking forward to it. I’ve recently tried lucid dreaming, but it didn’t work out. Maybe when I’m permanently asleep I’ll have note practice, heh.
Like I said, I don’t know why I’m writing this, but thank you, thank you so much for reading this.
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Why not try a trade school? or apply for a job anyway. You never know what can happen even if you have low confidence. I think you shouldn’t give up completely until you run out of every possible option.
Why not try a trade school? or apply for a job anyway. You never know what can happen even if you have low confidence. I think you shouldn’t give up completely until you run out of every possible option.
Don’t rush into anything. Take some time to really think about what you could do, or what could change. I’m guessing your not even 20 yet. Your 20’s are probably the best time of your life, and when you will realize what you really want to do, what makes you happy and what you want to hold onto.
Sorry i don’t mean to sound like an old fart, i’m 25. But have some fun first. Go and sign on at the job centre, you;ll get a bit of cash in. Go and see your doc, he’ll tell you where you can meet people who are going through the same stuff and make some new friends or just go down your local and chat. I know this sound like loads of effort when your down but after you do it, theres a good chance it’ll help and it might help build your confidence.
You don’t need to know what you want to do job wise yet either… chill. Some easy jobs to get into if yor really bad at interviews are retail places like poundland and primark. I know it’s not the greatest, but at least its cash, and colleagues you can chat to, and have a laugh with.