Today I went to the St. Patrick Day parade. I was having a really good time and i actually had fun, which seems to never happen. But now that I’m home my mind is just yelling at me and telling me, why the hell were you happy, you cant do that, stop being happy. Now I just feel so depressed and i feel like i have to be mad at myself for being happy, instead of being proud of actually having fun and being happy. i just dont know what to do.
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Smile. Be happy you actually had the chance to feel happy again. Don’t mind the voices that tell you to be willing to feel pain. Give me a smile and tell yourself, “I’m happy and no bullshit will ruin this day.”
Hi Natalie… Take each happy event and build on the next one. It takes a while to break the cycle of negativity. I still struggle with that cycle… and it’s easy to lock yourself into expecting only bad things. Like ihonestlydontknow said, be happy that you had the chance to feel happy… and build on that… one day at a time.
Tell your mind to shut up. Scream it out loud if you have to.