Why do people keep trying to help me, Dr’s, counselors, family…. I just want to go from this world already, 32 years is enough for me. Half of which have been filled with drug addictions and abuse, failed relationships and many attempts at ending it all. I have tried leading a “normal” life and it bores me, just over it!
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If you’re 32, don’t you think you are old enough to get over your issues of your own? If a normal life bores you, find something interesting to do. Like skydiving or rock climbing. Or just go camping! We have more accessibility to these things when we are older, plus there’s the internet. With the internet, it’s easy to find places or things you can go to/do to make life more interesting. And have them cheap. Stop with relationships for a year or two and see how different life is. Get away from the abuse, or REPORT THE ABUSE! You’re not a kid anymore. So hurry up and go to a place where they will help you stop with drug addictions. Stop thinking about death and such. Try thinking about things that interest you. And follow through with those things.
Been off the drugs now 4 months, recently split from my wife, I have no interest in anything at all, even sleep I suffer nightmares, sick of being in psych wards…. Appreciate the time you spent to comment, but if it was that simple I would do something about it, been hospitalised 4 times this month already and 6 times this year alone 🙁 I don’t see any future for me, I miss my wife and best friend so much it is killing me slowly and painfully, and I feel I deserve the pain as I was a horrible husband due to my addictions. Will probably have another attempt tomorrow and see if heaven will take me this time. Fingers crossed
Issues have not been as horrid as yours.
Do somewhat understand your point about having no future.
And understand the futility of outside help… even if you want it sometimes.
There comes a time in every mans life when he’s whole being, strength of character, skill and resolve are tested to the ultimate. The distinction between success and failure is solely a matter of interpretation and do not necessarily adhere to the principles invented by others. Whether or not you are satisfied with the life you have become accustomed to or the mistakes you have made is a question that is likely to leave you feeling a sense of regret. It is far more worthwhile to accept that the past will remain unchanged, that there are some aspects of your life which have gone beyond recall and it was all entirely necessary. This is because, over the course of a lifetime there ought to be a gradual realisation that nothing lasts forever. If given another chance, a chance to go back in time and rectify the error of your ways, it soon becomes apparent that one set of mistakes are simply replaced by new ones. Perfection is a falsehood created by observation and undermined by experience.
Thanks 🙂
Nothin will be gained from suicide. Suicide is an end to a temporary problem. The problem may be a long one, but it is still temporary. That and if you off yourself, you have NO CHANCE AT ALL of ever seeing someone you might love. I say might because I’m not you, and I have never loved anyone except my cats. lol. Seriously though. Death is not the answer. If you get rid of your addictions completely, and stop doing things that put you in the ward, you will come out a better person. Trust me, because I have similar experiences.
Truer words have never been spoken. Im tired of people insisting that one needs help because they don’t define that person’s definitions of sanity. This world is horrible and isn’t satisfying enough to continue being judged by our ignorant society.
Are we being judged by society, or are the individuals that it constitutes equally dissatisfied with their own existence. The headlines in newspapers are mostly tragic, with stories of misery. That’s what sells, that’s what people want to hear.
Duke – way to come on strong with the overwhelming facts of life 😛
ediot666 – Judge yourself in the present and not the past. Your daily actions will establish the success you seek.
Another month is within reach compared to the 4 months off drugs. Even the roughest edges can become smooth contours. Give it more time.
Didn’t mean to do a smiley.. I can feel those beady eyes staring me down and laughing at me.
Emotionalessandlost.
I disagree.
Sometimes death is better than decades of suffering.
Had I not feared failing again and had I not had the illogical idea of hope brainwashed into me, I would have died from a perfect method years ago.
Well I never said I was right. I was just putting the thought out there. And by the way, that depends on the suffering. And if you still haven’t offed yourself then you still have some hope inside you that things will get better. You may not notice or feel it, but it’s there. And then there’s the saying or whatever that goes something like: If you keep doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results, you will eventually go insane. You need to change what you do, even if it seems like a small thing, in order to get different results. Interpret as you like. And once again, I’m not saying that I’m right.
Thanks for some words for thought… Taken a massive amount of codeine with half a bottle of scotch, but I know I will wake up tomorrow, as usual, I am trying to change and better myself, BUT I see no light at the end of the tunnel… I picture my life currently as what he’ll would be like, I’m not the first to lose a wonderful and very special person do close to me, but…. Don’t know, death feels like the only way, I have 14 sleeps until what would have been my 4th wedding anniversary, I really really don’t see me coping with my eternal loss of my beloved wide Nina, I will pray tonight before I pass out and see if god himself has any answers for me, I need help but am to proud and somewhat ashamed to ask… she was my whole world, even though drugs were all I ever thought about and cared for, I know it’s too late to salvaged marriage and without large quantities of drugs I don’t have ANY coping abilities… Add 16 years of coping with drugs, I feel I have little or no hope, if god did exist he would have to be watching me cry 50+ times a day, sorry to whine about something I fu__ed up so bad and could have had eternal love from her even if I was not happy, her love has kept me alive for 6 years without that , I am lost, broken and just an empty shell… Wish gun laws here were easier, I really do:-(