Leonard Cohen-Old Ideas

“None of us deserving of the cruelty or the grace.”

This line from the song “Come Healing,” is probably my favorite collection of words that I have ever heard.  From the album Old Ideas by Leonard Cohen.  If you’re not familiar with Leonard Cohen, he is the gentleman who penned the song “Hallelujah.”  I know that song is far played out, but I’m pretty sure this man has been where we have.

Kurt Cobain referenced him in regards to his own suicide.

I had a dream that I met him.  The dream was so intense that I tried to open my eyes to make sure it wasn’t a dream, but I couldn’t and my eyes were gone.

Every so often, I feel worse than I already feel which is pretty horrible.  When I start to feel worse I get angry with myself for not feeling grateful for the seeming acceptable level of horrible that I already feel, and I worry about things getting worse.  Today, I was able to just acknowledge that things were getting worse and it didn’t bother me so much.