Got this website while browsing, like my heading state im 30 going on 31 and still want to die every day, some days worse then the others. I would never commit suicide, but i do know that if I could die for someone, if I could go in someone elses place that still want this earth, I would gladly take her.his place. I have searched for 30 years for my purpose which i believe i did what i had and was expected of me -yet dying is what i live for.
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Hi CINDY-CLOVER
I can relate very much to what you are saying (except I have actually tried to kill myself on 5 occasions). I am also trying to find my place in life, I am 34. I have actually a lot going for me; 2 children, world recognition as a scientist, successful career, money, countless opportunities and yet, all I want to do is die. In the same way as you describe, I live to die at the moment. I hang around to feel the pain I am in because I think I deserve it, but it is only a matter of time until I try to end it again. I have no friends, no family (except for my 2 younger children – whom I cannot see anymore) and no purpose in this life. I can offer so much, but I cannot offer myself anything to make me happy. It is a pain that just will not go away now it has risen to the top. I hope that you do find your purpose, any idea at all what it could be?
i can relate too, ugh what to do??