I am fully aware that I need help but there is nothing that helps. I have tried hospitialization, every type of therapy, had around 15 therapists, been on 20 different meds, tried meditation, talking. I’ve tried it all and nothing helped. I am not able to feel joy or love, I am always deeply depressed for 7 years. I cannot function around people and haven’t had contact with anybody except my family for 6 months. I get paranoid at night and can’t sleep. I have an unknown chronically painful stomach problem that even though I have had every medical test known to man twice, cannot find what is wrong. I have lost all faith in humanity. I still can’t relax ever or sleep decent. Its almost 1pm and I literally haven’t slept all night and that’s not very unusual for me. I never do anything or go anywhere. I have no goals or dreams. I am alone all day at the house from 8am until 7pm and I am getting closer and closer to suicide.
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I hear you. I always felt I just wasn’t the kind of person meant to be alive. But we’re supposed to be grateful for it for some reason. I’m not the best person to give advice on this but I hope you know that here, we get it. And at this point, that’s all we can ask for.
Are you still on drugs?
no I quit the drugs a few months ago they were not helping