I’m 16 and currently go to high school. My mother tends to nag on me and yell at me a lot since I enjoy spending my free time playing games. She does not enjoy the way I spend my time and calls me the word “addicted” when I do play. She has a boyfriend that I don’t like…because he moves my possessions without notifying me. And when I questioned him about it today he clearly told me he will respect it only for my mothers sake…I mean why can’t he just apologize to me and say he’s sorry? Now for the issue at school…. I have been talking to my counselors at school a lot since I’m not very social. I tend to be quite and ignore people but I always hang out with my best friend since he has always been there for me and is the only person that talks to me. I recently took up a hobby thinking it would help but it’s just not helping since my family won’t take me to do it. Now for the girl part….. I tend to ignore girls the most since I’m shy and my last relationship destroyed me. She had her friend dump me because I was very emotionally depressed. My grades have been dropping dramatically and my family is saying it’s my fault. The truth is though that they have never helped me in my work and I have always had to work by myself.
When I was growing up my brother was there for me but my mother tells me to basically forget about him. When he was growing up he went threw the same thing but instead at my age he took up smoking, joining a gang, tagging, and stealing. I think I understand why he ended up like this now though… I don’t want to blame my mom for doing this to him but I can’t really think of anything else. My brother ended up leaving my mom at the age of 15 and lived with my Grandma and Grandpa since then. My mom argues with my grandma and grandpa a lot since they pay for my brother to buy cigarettes,basic needs,transportation, basically everything. I just can’t take the yelling. . . When I try to resolve it peacefully she always finds something to throw at me and make me even sadder. Why just a few months ago I apparently disgraced my family’s honor by trying to peacefully resolve a friendship conflict between my mother and her friend. My punishment was being yelled at and being told daily that I have shamed my family and that my Grandma and Grandpa are not proud of me. I think it would be better for me to just leave the world and to escape the anger I have caused on my family.