truthbetold is a jaded individual
urban dictionary says:
a) the end result of having a steady flow of negative experiences,disappointment, and unfulfillment fed into a person
where they get to the point where their anger circuits just sort of burn out and they accept disillusionment.
b) emotionally numb. having been through so much pain that you simply give up and decide unconciously not to feel anymore. mental suicide.
I also have dormant hatred for humanity, which is awaken when people do or say things that remind me how compassionate us humans can be ..
my friend depression tends to find its way inside my mind during the fall and usually leaves with the return of the sunny days
I’ve been doing ok for the past 2 months .. the main reason: I don’t interact with RL ‘normal’ people on a regular basis
the less interactions I have with them, the more I can tolerate being alive, because:
I don’t have to invest (waste) energy in (on) playing the social game .. no mask to wear during hours .. hoo fuckin ray !
the more I get to interact with offline fellow humans, the more I experience confusion or feel drained
I better enjoy a period that’ll have its end when I’ve ran out of money
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Your words made me hesitate on replying since you apparently don’t like the compassionate interaction. I think you see yourself as better than everyone else? Superior. God-like. As if we’re all just flies to you. Maybe you should step outside of yourself. Get out of your own head and be empathetic to others. No one is perfect. You’re no better than most people. Just some non-compassionate words from someone who’s compassionate.
lol, I’m hurt by your lack of compassion 🙁
you have the right to assume I see myself as better than most people
but: just because I sound arrogant doesn’t imply I lack empathy
I have empathy and it’s led me to being taken advantage of in the past (ha !)
so fuck empathy .. IMO, not everyone deserves empathy
also, I’ve learned through years of having no friends (as a teen) that the *hardest and most important thing* one must do is learn to validate/love oneself .. this sounds cliché but it’s true
we’re conditioned to think we are worthless when on our own & that we should always seek others for validation, to be somebodies: THIS IS A FUCKING LIE
I can guarantee that if you focus your mind on self-appreciation (& not self-depreciation), your need to interact with others will decrease .. I am my worst enemy but also my best friend, same goes for you .. I’d rather focus on being my best friend
I apologize for being better than most people
ps: I stated I’d rather avoid offline/real life interaction
when you have to log on a website where people are hopeless, disappointed with humanity etc to read POV’s you can relate to, people who won’t bore you with their I bought this/ I fucked ‘X’/ let’s belittle ‘X’ convos
what are you supposed to think of the outside world ?