So yesterday my mom decided to pinch at my zits because I am ugly as hell. I naturally dislike this since it hurts a ton. Well needless to say she got all pissed off, and that got me upset also. So she makes me apologize for being angry and I do so but not actually caring. So she yells at me some more and tells me to fuck off. I go up to my room and start reading some Zelda manga. That helps me forget about whatever bad things happen, so I like video games. So my mom comes upstairs and interrupts my ritual, and gets me raging even more so. She want a conversation, which is really her just trying to prove her point. Long story short, my dad comes home and beats me up for being such a bad son. I don’t know if you can tell but I am very emotional. Nobody at school knows, but I only have extreme emotions: ecstasy, rage, and depression. This all started with my mom trying to pop my zits (only pain in my eyes, which=rage) and eventually lead to depression. I know that I have a pretty bad problem, and I also have another personality; suicidal. Duh. Every time I get really angry and depressed, I start thinking about dying. It comforts me when I think about how shitty I am. I’ve also decided to try scratching, and I’m going to try when I gag the chance. This all feels like me trying to get attention, so I feel guilty somehow of writing this. I’m obviously not as angry now, and I’m going to do another little statement every now and then, it helps me vent. Sorry, I suck at writing so this isn’t written very well. Please leave help or whatever you want.
4 comments
first – im very sorry that must be really annoying, i can understand why u are emotional u have every god damn right too.
second- dont be sorry with the way u wrote your post its perfectly fine nothing is wrong with it
third- if u ever wanna talk u can talk to me.
hey i get that way to where death is the first thing that comes to my mind anytime some little thing pisses me off its annoying and a terrible feeling if you ever wanna talk im here
Oh my fucking god If my dad even tried to swing at me I would snap every single one of his fingers off
Its ok to be emotional. I’m very emotional myself and a lot of people don’t get it but its not as if it is a switch we can flip on and off :/ I’m sorry you have to go threw that. Some parents just love nagging and it is really an annoyance. Good luck and its ok if you write crappy, which you really don’t, just air it out. Fierce Love<3