Downward Decent

Life is supposed to be lived at a sort of dynamic equilibrium, with some days being better than others, but each day always being manageable to live through.  Alas, this is not the case in my life, my life is far past manageable, it feels as if each and everyday that goes by, my life keeps drifting farther and farther past that manageable mark.  I don’t know how much longer I can keep continuing on this downward decent.  In every part of my life I feel trapped, like there is no way out of the current situation from everything that pertains to my family life, my relationship, and everything in between.  I have no idea why life is so horrid, and I truly wish that I could change the way that the world works, but unfortunately I cannot.  I’m tired of living, breathing, and existing, and I long for the eternal darkness that I know will await me when I finally reach my demise.  I just wish that my end would hurry up and reach me already.