uh. I am so alone. I have NO ONE. i have not left this house with any friends since probably May. I pushed everyone away. Why? everyone betrayed me. My friends all talk meaningless about me. My boyfriend dumped me a little before we turned a year together, right after i lost my virginity to him. I am a total dumbass. God, and this is just friends. Family? yeah. nah uh. My parents are on the point of divorcing. Always chaos in my house with either me and mom, me and dad, dad and mom, sister and sister, and me or sister.
Ive been through so much this year. Sent to a mental hospital for threatning to killl myself, and slitting my arm multiple times. Got arrested for hitting a police officer (HE WAS CHASING ME WITH A BAT!!)
Ive been depressed almost 2 years now. And I think its time, for me to just give up on life. I have a plan and everyhing. Im just waiting for the right time now.
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I feel the same way. Total different situation…but still feel so alone. It’s my fault, I pushed my friends away too. They’re better off without me, that’s how I see it. I’m sorry you have been through a lot lately. Maybe things will start to turn around since you know you’re still waiting for the right time. And hopefully that will be a long time from now.