Ehh…

Trying to be friends with an ex

Difficult

Distances a bit better

But in most cases

Difficult

That is why no one believes in being friends with an ex.

I thought my friendship with this one certain ex was different

but i realized we were distanced.

Person lived in another area while I was in another.

Thought our friendship was different.

But I guess I was wrong

Friendship was nothing but a great disaster

Once I heard what was really going on.

I flipped out. Thought there was a great trust. But now I guess not. I believe that in the past they were all lies. Nothing but lies. If that person really trusted me, person would have told me. Not years later. Finding out from another person. I went thru that most of my years. Why couldn’t person have told me? I told person most of everything only cuz I trusted that person. cuz I thought person was my best friend. A true best, good old friend. But I guess I was wrong. I guess I was a bad, terrible friend. After we broke up, (before we agreed on being friends) I just wanted person to be happy. Find someone there who make smile again. but what I believed in, person didn’t find that other person. I tried to push person away, but person was alway there. Time to time we spoke to each other. Time to time, I had to deal with my life. But I tried to be the friend I could be. After I came back home, (same city) I realized that I shouldn’t bug or annoy person. I did thought for a few times. It was pretty cool to have a conversation with person. but after a few more months, we had stopped. I guess I annoyed perosn with my own problems. And I distanced from person again. Dealing with my own problems by myself. A few more months passed by, started to call person again. and not after a few more weeks. I guess shit happens and I really annoyed person. Ever persons friends and family told me to move on. So that is what I am doing right now. Trying to move on.