So I was wondering if my tendency to hurt myself could be considered a positive or at least non-negative behavior. I have been in many situations where I was prepared to commit suicide, but I started cutting or punching myself. The pain always ended up overriding my will to go through with the suicide and I just continued until I was left crying myself to sleep. I can’t think of how many times the cuts and bruises have saved my life. I am so confused on whether I should be happy that hurting myself has saved me or not.
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It isn’t the best thing to do, but if it’s the only tool you have to stay alive, it can’t be that bad.
i would be happy it keeping you alive and i dont know about you but cuts give me a lil rush that makes me feel alive
I usually don’t cut. That has only happened on a few occasions. I mostly punch myself in the jaw or somewhere else that is hard so I can feel it more. I’ve cause a lot of damage to my right hand at times because door frames are a popular target for me.
I can sort of relate to you i would punch anything the wall the floor but my hand started messin up somehow and it would hurt really bad and wasnt able to realease stress like that anymore so i started cutting simple but i dont like people knowing i do I never cut myself bad though or punched myself that hard to where it could save my life I hate doing it but at points i just do it you know what i mean??
Yeah. Physical pain has always helped me cope with emotional difficulties.
I’ve punched walls and my head on occasion. I’ve once cut as well.
Luckily I’ve never cut deep enough to cause scarring or damaged/broken my hand, although I have hit my head to the point where its really sore with swelling and sensitivity for a day or 2. I’ve also (on occasion) OD’d on meds (not enough to die, but enough to make me feel like I deserve w/e happens to me). This only happens when I’m unable to cope with a specific negative event that comes at me unexpected. I guess I just cant cope as good.