Close to goodbye..

It all started in September of 2010. Two years ago. We met.. He fell for me, and i didnt fall quite as hard for him. I was in a terrible relationship at the time, and he tried to save me.. But try was all he could do.. because i was too stubborn to listen to anyone. Little did i know, he was so in love with me.. it was literally killing him. After my .. lets say “rejection” towards him, he got involved with a girl who would call him saying “Im cutting as we speak.” “If you dont say the right thing in the next 2 minutes im killing myself” They never ended up dating.. But came close enough.. This was around the time he began cutting.

This all lead him to “4south” The place where the mentally ill teenagers go. Around here, we call it a phony insane asylum.. It helps NO ONE! In this place, he met another girl that he fell for. She was and still is deranged. She was admitted for jumping in front of a speeding car. He fell in love with her.. almost instantly.. She was Bulemic, Depressed, Suicidal, Bipolar, and many other things that he did not need in his life during a time he was trying to recover. He tried to fix her. He took her into his own hands.

She led him into a deep dark stage of his life that i never want to see him visit again. He was doing every thing possible to become admitted and see her…. The night my sister had her accident, he OD’d . We were quietly sitting in emerg. Waiting to be called in, when the most painful sight ever graced my eyes. In walked the boy i had fallen for over a year earlier. An intense feeling of sadness over came the room. Bright red blood was dripping from his arms, and his eyes had a hazy look when he collapsed to the floor in front of us.

This was the night i realized he needed me in his life. I wasnt stable my self, seeing as i suffer from manic depression and anorexia, but i would help him…. I was determined. He still does not know this, but i cried myself to sleep that night. He messaged me on facebook, telling me he had been admitted. The reason behind his OD, was her. She made him feel worthless, like he could not help her.. And this made him hate himself, due to the huge heart he has. The night he messaged me, put a spark to a fire we figured was gone out for good.

The day following his release, i payed him a visit. He promised me, that nothing along those lines would ever happen again.. I woke up to a message from his Mother, the next day that read…. “He attempted suicide again.. He hung himself, and i found him laying on the floor gasping for air. He was pronounced legally dead for 3 minutes.. But, he came back .. he is now in 4south. I do not advise you to go see him.”

Against her word, i went and seen the new love of my life.. His neck was a mess. His eyes were dull and faded.. This was because he didnt know how to break up with her, fearing she would commit suicide.

They eventually ended up breaking up.. Him and i became closer friends by the day.. We officially started dating on June 19th 2012. He has had a few rough times while being with me, but nothing huge.. He is now in treatment getting better, and is released in 7 days.. I have not seen him in 2 months.

I am proud to say, I saved him from a bad relationship. I saved him from suicide. I saved his happiness…

Thank you so much for listening.