I am 27. And I havent accomplished anything in all this time.
Two years ago I attempted to kill myself, and obviously I failed. I got caught and then I was forced to talk to people, who told me that life was worth living, that suicide wasn’t the answer, that I should try harder, that my life would have some purpose. Two years later, and its still the same. The thought of death haunts me more often.
I keep pretending I’m so happy and ok, but this mask is fading away and I cannot keep it up, the truth is that I am slipping away, the truth is that i cry every night, hoping not to wake up the next morning.
The burden is so heavy, and i cant take it anymore. I am going to give death a chance. I’m going to try it again.
Maybe not today, nor tomorrow; but I know that before this year ends there will be a day when the reasons to die will overcome the reasons to live.
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Damn thats deep
You have accomplished one thing…..you have lived this long…….i am 12……..I cant even think about living another night…….you…….you amaze me……….Why dot you make the burdan lighter? Join the miliatary….meet a nice woman/man………be HAPPY or at lead sad but you have yout moments
I know what it’s like to pretend. People don’t want to hear your pain. But people on this site understand what you’re going through and it is pure hell. I wish I had an easy answer for you. I don’t. But don’t give up on yourself at 27. You are still young. I hope you find what eases your pain and a way to live a better future.