I’ve never been so lost in my entire life. I don’t even know where to start.
I’ve been depressed, anxious, and suicidal my whole life. It’s been miserable. It’s so hard having nobody to talk to. My family doesn’t understand. Every single day I put on my fake smile and act like I’m okay, but I’m not. I try to get my parents to hear me. I cry out, but nobody listens. I’m invisible to them.
I have no idea what I’m doing with me life. My dreams were always shot down. They said I wasn’t special and that I’d never make it. I still believe I can. But I have no way to get anywhere. I just want to go, and I don’t know how.
I’m so alone. And I’ve been alone. What I would do for just one friend. One person that understood me. One person I could talk to about anything and everything. I don’t need a lot. I’m not stingy about it. I just want one friend. Is that so much?
I don’t understand why my life is like this. I never thought I’d turn out like this. I’m a good person. I hate feeling miserable all the time. I hate feeling worthless. I don’t understand why I can’t just experience an ounce of pure and true happiness.
I’m just…stuck. I’m heading nowhere. Sometimes I just feel like there’s just no use anymore.
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cheer the fuck up. Lil *****. Life is shit. but luckly its the shit we make it. if you want a big glob of feel sorry for me and I suck at everythign SHIT then go ahead and make your self a nice stinking pile.
I am not being negative. I am just be real. you got to pull yourself out of the shit. Keep going. your doing a good job. stay focused on your dreams.. they never come easy.. thats why they are called dreams.. when they are finallay made real.. we don’t know of it.
Pick it up slacker… your just one morsel in a cat turd. .. but still you can do it!
Being alone for a long time can be rough, I know. But it can also give you time to get to genuinely know yourself and become independent which I believe can be a really good thing in the long run. “They” said you’d never make it? Well, let that just be a little motivation. Instead of letting them bring you further down, try to make it into something that will bring you up and keep you going to achieve your goal. Prove them wrong. YOU still believe in yourself and that is all that matters. I wish you well, dear.
@sadfuck No need to call her a “Lil *****”. Try and be considerate next time, asshole.
I second Kalisue. That was uncalled for sadfuck. Hopelessdreamer don’t mind him.
Kalisue’s advice is pretty much what I would have said…Zoe x
Hopeless Dreamer,I’m here for you if you want someone to talk to. Although I am probably much older than you, I am well aware of the harmful effects of not having someone to talk to. To prove my validity, here is the main source of your problem based on what you posted:People’s inability to effectively listen. This includes people’s inability to listen without interrupting you constantly. Their inability to take an interest in you. And their tendency to judge, advise, or debate you quickly rather than just letting you talk.I won’t go into all the details of how this is revealed in your post, but perhaps it is a gut feeling on my part combined with my awareness of the art of active listening. Your post shows cookie-cutter signs that the people in your life are poor listeners. The average person reading your post may not discern this simply due to an unawareness with regarding to the topic of active listening. But trust me, I would bet money that people’s poor listening skills is the main source of your frustration.I am willing to be a friend, but I am not sure how you can contact me. I don’t want to post my email here.Stuff you wrote is what I have and still go through in my life. In my case though, I managed to get past the suicide aspect. Because I can empathize with your issues, there is no way I can turn my back on you. I actually have little to no desire to offer advice to you because that is not what you are seeking per se… you simply want and need someone to talk to who will be supportive and interested. The odds are high that you already know what to do, or you already have the insight that is reflected in Kalisue’s comment. I suspect you are simply just drained and stressed over the loneliness you feel. Once that loneliness starts to go away, you’ll be able to navigate through this mess on your own. And that is often the missing key when it comes to survival strategy.I am here for you if you want a safe person to talk to. We’d have to have some rules, to respect both our privacy. But I’d be happy to be your pen-pal. (Does anybody even ever say “pen-pal” anymore? lol)Hang in there buddy….