I shouldn’t complain about my life.It’s not like I wasn’t hugged as a child or anything. I should be strong like my dad and not complain about anything.I wish I could just stand there and take what life throws at me, but I can’t.And that is why i’m worthless.I know i’m not the first girl to be bullied at school ,to have to experiance death of a friend, Not the first teenager who feels like she is the stupid kid or the first girl in the world to get moslested or the first kid to get pushed around the hospitals phyicatric wards’ system when I do admit that i am suicidal. I can’t complain becuse these thing happen to everyone right?
Yes I am complaining, and that makes me weaker than alot of people.I get it I will never be as girly and pretty as my stupid sisters or as tough and ready to take on anything brothers.I get that I will be the only failure in my family tree.I’m sorry that I can’t be super skinny like those models I see on t.v.I’m sorry that I can’t be one of those smart kids in my class. I’m sorry that the world stresses me.I’m sorry that I had to end my childhood at the age of 5.I’m sorry for everything that I had said.I’m sorry to my friends who find me too quiet or too generous to give out my things.
I guess I will turn out like a robot. Nothing to live for.Just faking a smile for the sake of looking normal.Just waiting for the day this tourure will end.I just want to have a normal childhood.I want to complain about my perents being embarrasing or fan girling over One Direction.But no I complain about everything above and I ‘Fan-girl” over death
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No one has the exact same story as another but 90% of this -I fee like I could have wrote. Not a horrible life, but still not a life worth living. Odd one out in the family.. Not a normal childhood at all. I’m here for you love. Stay strong.
If you convince yourself that you’re worthless you’re only making yourself weaker; you’re not worthless, and there’s nothing wrong with complaining. You have the right to be sad stop comparing your plight to others, if it hurts to you then it’s meaningful and significant.
You’ll never be as skinny as “those models” why would you want to be? Don’t convince yourself that they’re somehow the pinnacle of beauty and you’re forever distant from it. Beauty exists inside you, find it. You’re different, unique, that’s not something to be ashamed of i think it’s something to be happy about. Embrace what you are and the world will kneel before you. You haven’t failed yet, and if you stay strong you won’t.
The situatiosn you have said, true, you prolly aren’t the first but, even if the situation is somewhat the same, the person isn’t, and thats what matters, diferent ppl deal with the same situation in diferent ways, so yes ofc you can complain, some ppl just cant cop up with it, and its perfectly normal, since we aren’t all the same.
but you shouldn’t belittle yourself, im sure there is also good points about you, something that you can do and no1 else can, beauty or not, im sure you will find someone that likes you for who you are, ultimately you can also make an effort to change if you dont want to be that way anymore, but you need to accept you are first, im sure your way of seeing certain things will change after. so stay strong, we are here for you 🙂