I Think Im Hooked

HeadSick, the BEST advice I can give you is to go to a doctor and get prescribed something to help you, NOW. You are self medicating and it is only going to get worse. I speak from experience. I have that same “noisy brain”, I’m bi-polar and have severe PTSD. I started taking vicodin about 14 years ago, just a half when I needed it. I started needing more and more to help…now I’m an needle using heroin addict. The shame will get NO better, only worse. The withdraw will get worse. I wouldn’t wish this on my worse enemy. You are not a bad person, your brain needs help and you are not going to make it any better by taking Lortab. This state you are in is a vicious cycle, trust me…break the cycle…for the better. I know, you are probably thinking, “why should I listen to you, you junkie?”. I get it, I do. I never expected to be where I am. I’m a 41 yo, college educated, professional person, married with kids. I know what I’ve done to my life and want to change it…HAVE to change it. I’ve recently been diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. All these years as an addict, I’ve wanted to die, now I might, and all I want to do is live. So I AM cleaning up, altough I have to be on doctor monitored pain management. I’ve been working on this and scaling down for the past 3 weeks.

Please get help, this is NO life. You don’t live, you survive from day to day…from one hit to the next. That is not a life. It took me getting cancer to realize it, please don’t wait for something like that to hit you before you change things around.

Good luck! I’m here if you need me or have any questions at all!!!
RQ