Today I was cursed out and yelled at very aggressively by a client. For some reason that set me off today. It usually does not upset me like it did today… but I just don’t want to keep living. I’m invisible to everyone around me at work. They are happy if I get my work done. I want to to cry, and no tears come. I’ve been e-mailing and calling friends for support… but that only helps so much, then I end up back on here again typing about feeling suicidal, depressed, exhausted, etc. I feel alone. I wait on pins and needles for an e-mail from a friend just for the reassurance that I shouldn’t end it all.
I’ve been listening to this one song on repeat for like three days because it says, “IS SOMEBODY OUT THERE to ease my troubled mind…” Is there?